It’s hard for me to use any emotion for magick thanks to an abuser whom broke my psyche. I’m just blank most of the time, with some sadness/suicidal emotions coming time to time. I know I have raw rage that I’ve locked away since I was young because I couldn’t control it and almost got people killed that didn’t really deserve it.
How the hell do I either unlock my emotions, and or use magick otherwise? Also thanks to my emotionless broken psyche, my astral senses are fucked. Honestly it feels like all my emotions and intentions of harm to my abuser are condensing (It legit feels like a black/white vortex just sucking in all my emotions, rage, sadness, revenge, and my will, especially the will to get back at them, and condensing them). It’s also affecting my memory mental state negatively.
And contacting / asking my patrons is no help, as they put me on a path to learn on my own, aka taking the training wheels off.
You don’t need emotion to do magick. All you need is the ability to raise and manipulate energy and the ability to visualise, or at least bring into awareness, your goal.
Only a spell like the baneful Ritual Release of Hatred needs any sort of high emotional output.
Any magick I’ve ever really done was me directing my emotions and intent towards a goal, as that’s what intuition has taught me. Now I got no emotions to direct, and my intuition is very spotty. And no I’ve never tried any healing magick besides using my emotions and intent towards healing something.
Well, candle magick requires no emotion, only visualisation and intention. Chaos style sigil magick requires no emotion, only a brief trance state to fire the sigil off. Mantra chanting requires no emotion, the words that are chanted raise and direct the energy to the goal.
The arena of magick is wide so there is plenty you can do regardless of your emotional state.
Maybe give some of the healing mantras that are available on the forum a try, and aim it at the trauma that is effecting your psyche. Just sit and chant it as much as you can.
From someone who has known nothing but abuse for over 3 decades, the first thing I can tell you is I’ve been through it too. Unlocking your emotions starts by releasing the rage, whether it’s directed or by exercise, obviously as you know using rage toward people can blind you, but you can use it for transformation and change.
Not going to start a huge debate with @DarkestKnight, but I’d disagree emotion isn’t necessary, and as you have mentioned it seems you are quite emotional by nature and just possibly low on self esteem due to your abuser.
Healing magick I agree would be beneficial, learning to channel your rage will unblock your astral senses.
More than emotions, visualisation is needed. IT is said that the Dragon is dreaming our reality so his dreams can be influenced through other dreams and emotions of course too
Ay, I also have a problem channeling emotion into magick, but not because I was abused or anything, but because I myself am so calm, I sometimes think im a psychopath. I mostly feel subconscious emotions and sometimes regular or strong emotions but not much as a regular person should.
Anyway to answer your question you could substitute emotion for something else.
Like “yi” a term from qigong, it means willpower often mistranslated into “visualize or imagine”. Visualizing is different from willpower. Willpower is your demand to see yourself, and the very situation improve and your authority/ideals respected. Its the thing that controls your energy.
You dont have to visualize too much with yi. Just say/think/write your demand to the entity or universe or whatever you have, with razor sharp conviction.
This method, can develop your commanding aura,self confidence, control of energy and remove self doubt plus indecisiveness. It cuts down ritual times by a large margain too. Like a 3 minute chicken scratch thing I do is completely as effective as a ten minute, well prepared ritual.
This method relies heavily on the strength of your character and the amount of chi/energy you have, Careful not to disrespect any spirits while trying to exercise your will . I use this one often.
Replace emotions with sexual energy.
Arouse yourself, you can cum at the end if you’re female but not if you’re male. orgasms are harmful to the male body, that why men feel tired after sex and some male animals die after mating.
observe the emotions and bodily feelings you have while aroused and channel them into your hands or wand and go into the ritual with this.
Rather than feeling solemn during rituals imagine yourself as a ‘sexy beast’(right now im sleepy and cant think of a better phrase than sexy beast)
Sexual energy is its own force, but it can also stir up or awaken your energy. I hear it also causes a gnosis(? im not too familiar with western magick terms).
Walking into a ritual aroused is kinda awkward, but it this is the method I used during my early time practising magic, Its merits are that you can use it to cast magick on days, when you feel you’re low on energy or not in the correct metal state. It’s also a way for beginners to easily feel their energy.
While I have worked with the goetia demons, I dont know how some of the other dark magic spirits will react if you walk into your ritual aroused tho.
You can visualize as pointed out by another commenter, that works, quite effectively. But I havent used that method much. I prefer willpower and sexual energy to this one, because after any magic is done, I can use any left over energy to support my qigong training.
What DK said re: visualization; however…If you lack emotion how are you even doing magick?
To “want” or “desire” something enough to take it to the left, is that not emotion?
everyone have emotions. If you have opinion about something, you have emotions. Cuz that’s what emotions is. The strong negative or positive opinion about something/someone/event.
not having emotions means you just aren’t invested in whatever event . So there isn’t a stimulus feelings or thoughts about event. Someone can just observe events objectively and have no emotions. While others can cry over same event. It depends on the meaning someone makes of some event in life. Some people don’t put meaning to event so they may have no emotion about it. It’s just a bus passing by. Therefore , no emotion comes up.
Sometimes people experience trauma in life and it makes them not care about anything so they go through a long time of not feeling emotions. It’s normal process of mind. if you don’t care , don’t expect emotions to be there. Than it becomes a habit. Many psychologist would start to label it a disease condition when it’s normal process of habit.
@Tiger
There is no wrong or right just circumstance. It might just be miscommunication. Most often it’s miscommunication or incongruency. some people might not have emotions due to brain damage. So it depends on individual situation. however, if the brain shows no damage of sorts, emotions are there. it’s biology in our genes.
I’m not saying she’s right or she’s wrong but, always seek a second opinion. even then your therapist can only diagnose you based on what you disclose unless you spend time in an inpatient program to where you can be observed 24/7.
I actually have the opinion that emotions can pollute your magick. Emotions cause you to dwell on the outcome, which will ultimately interfere with its manifestation. As a sociopath in reverse, with high levels of empathy, I believe disengaging from emotional reactions is actually far more effective and just not giving a fuck about how you feel or other people’s feelings will assist you in manifesting your reality.
I used to be of the opinion that emotions simply could not be controlled. I got the bad habits from my mom, who basically didn’t teach me anything useful about how to manage them, to the point where I simply didn’t feel like it was possible, and I simply had to avoid things.
I don’t think that emotions pollute your magick at all, but they can cause you to do magick for stupid things or change your mind about stuff instead of thinking through in a more logical manner about what you want and why (I mean there is still emotion involved, but you aren’t compelled by it.)
I always felt like I had to make my spells work, because I couldn’t deal with things otherwise, and now for the first time, I am seeing how that is not true, and actually working on myself for once, something I had more or less given up on as “stuff that cannot be done”. (I felt it was easier to bring lost object back, etc than actually do anything about “emotions”) So, yeah, actually I did the magick, certain it would work, and then it did, and that got rid of the “emotions” (and yeah, I’m cursed with empathy too)
