I had the most amazing phenomenonal experience before my meditation exercises a couple nights ago. I cleaned up my altar before beginning and spoken before to Heylel and shared small thoughts with him. I saw the sigil of lilith glowing out of the dark. The aura that surrounded it was clear white, dancing on all sides of the sigil. I thought perhaps I should place her sigil here along with a black and red votive candles.
I picked up a small souvenir of a lightning whelk mollusk shell that was given to me by Lilith and Heylel before my journey into the occult again. With the shell in my fingers, I delicately traced my skin with it, encompassing small thoughts on how there once was a living organism that had thrived in this empty home. I smelled it, rimmed the top of it with my finger, bringing rememberances of the ocean to me.
The dark water started to dance away in beating waves within my imaginary world. I felt gentle and playful touches on my body as well as on my breast and thighs. It bothered me not. I continued to meditate on the dark water, the sea stretched even further deeper into the abyss.
Out of nowhere, my heart felt a longing to sing a song that represented the primordial ocean. I sang the hollow song of both darkness and hope, longing and loving. It was all enigmatic. The tones of my voice billowing in different octaves, synchronizing to the imagery of the abysmal water world. I sang the hollow song of remembrance, of sea foam and bliss emptiness of the dark ocean. Nothing thrived there but the ultimate Leviathan. And so I sang on while my heart embraced the lonely melody of the Leviathan coming out of my throat. I saw very well, the serpent water dragon emerging from its silhouetted background of jagged mountainous rocks. Curling gracefully upwards, I saw this large Leviathan rise up towards me.
Then there was a women with golden hair and porcelain skin swimming gracefully in the ocean. My vision of this women was that of a mythical mermaid, but almost the appearance of an invasive tiger fish or with extra features of ribboned finns.
The Leviathan passed on through, with razor sharp teeth with it’s jaw the size of a crater. It was massive. I cannot help but think of it in awe.
The next phase of the vision, I looked at myself from the outside, I was delicately beautiful without makeup or anything. Naturally I had a sensual aura to myself that felt sexual. I stared out into the ocean. I saw myself open up in the middle to look inside, there was a stag beetle and surprisingly someone had been waiting for me to say that.
The voice continued to say, “stag beetle.” (Represents the Egyptian god Khepri, also the jaws of the stag beetle represents horns.
The stag beetle changed its color from gold to red. Then I saw the Stonehenges and the setting sun against the sky. The evening moon appeared as well when the sun was setting. What could this mean? I thanked My godself, who is Lilith and blew out the candles. I petted my cat and head off to bed.
