Okay…I don’t even know where to start with this, but I wanted to post it here in the hopes of helpful discussion. Please bear with me lol.
I was called to follow Hecate when I was 15, and at 16 I dedicated myself to her. I pledged myself to a life of witchcraft, and whatever all that entailed for me. At he time She was my only rock, and witchcraft my only solace.
Lilith came to me initially 7 years ago, and it took me another 3 before I started to research Her. After approaching her and working with Her I realized we were deeply bonded, but it scared me.
She persisted. The last couple years I have worked with Her regularly. She revealed to me so much past life information, and revealed how She came to me in my Abyss space. It was revealed that She became my Mother, and Hecate adopted me.
I learned later that Hekate may have ties to Ereshkigal, Lililth May have served Inanna…whew!
Fast forward to the present time (more or less). I find out Beelzebub is my Patron and Lilith is confirmed as my Matron. My Anunnaki dna is confirmed.
My brain is swimming. Lucifer stays with me, but I realize he is not from the same energy family as the rest of these beings (of course). It’s like all of a sudden everything is coming together.
I keep feeling Belial around in some sort of fringe way, related to Beelzebub.
Even my angel Cassiel fits in, but in his way! Still angelic, but the Saturnian energy has a delicious darkness to it that is more abyss that angelic to me.
Michael (present for my whole life also) always watches over me, but he seems most comfortable with Lucifer.
On Walpurgisnacht I celebrated my self initiation into LHP and demonic work, and my dedication. It was my first initiation and dedication in 10 years, since that to Hekate. I am a little overwhelmed by the ranking angels, demons, and amazing dark goddesses I am tied to and come from. Deeply grateful. I hope I can find others like me here so we can connect!
TL;DR finding out a bunch of my spiritual heritage comes from exactly where I’d always hoped but never guessed. I knew Lilith and Hecate would always be in my life. The rest of this feels like walking into a giant hug of darkness lol. If you can shoot me some direction in any way I’d love to hear it! I promise I have been doing mad research and lots of meditation on my own as well!