I have been doing erotic meditation with the help of binaural beats and able to go to trance/sp but hereafter i am having issues for which i need specific guidance.
- after 5 or 10 minutes into meditation i feel my hands tied and feel pressure over hands,shoulder and legs twirl and my back arches up. sometimes full body becomes numb,vibrational. rarely do i feel fear,i enjoy this state. is it sp ?
- in the above state my mind is awake and sometimes i even open my eyes. my heart starts beating super fast and i start getting burps many a times. at this stage many a times a thought kicks in that i might get a heart attack because of the extraordinary beating/pressure on heart and i stop at this point and i feel the vibrations/edging to stop and some essence of myself going inside me. is it normal?
- if i pass above state by focusing on breathing (very rarely) then i encounter two situations…a)floating inside my body especially my hands and mid section (may be astral projection route) and b)focusing on blackness inside closed eyes (sometimes normal focus and other times focus shifts to third eye) at times gives faint visuals and many a times without visual i start having feelings of real action as if i am in the scene with my eyes closed (opening of eyes takes away all this). which route to follow ?
- when in above situation having feelings of being in the scene with closed eyes, i start feeling a mist like thing enveloping me from my feet towards my head and as if i am being cocooned/wrapped inside that and i feel consciousness from my full body being pulled towards my brain. but at this stage i always fear and stop it.at the most this feeling of getting enveloped i could perform was till my chest and shoulders and beyond that i could not go. what is this state or feeling. is it normal or what lies next ?
- binaural beats which i listen to are purely sexual and i am interested in sexual exploration with otherworldy and other dimensional beings of all gender and types. i listen to files of the abysssarian, somnisonica and others.i read faustus crow’s articles. i do not want to perform any ritual and such stuff. but by a proper mix of these and other beats and some imagination i have been able to reach upto this stage.
it is a request to all seniors to pl guide further and if any specific entity which i can imagine and meditate upon without any ritual for having sexual encounters and facilitating such encounters with other beings then it would be a great help.
@Lady_Eva if possible please direct me.