Honestly this feels really cringe, it feels like I’m naked since I’m about to spill some tea to you about my situation and anxiety, but since I had a intensive strong feeling about writing a post about it, I just have to right? 
For you to catch on, I’ve been working for 2 years and a half in sales, unhappy but stable. 1 year ago I decided to start school to become competent for the education in University I desire to begin. After a year of sweat and tears I’m competent and I applied to University but didn’t get in, heartbroken.
I applied once again for spring 2025, I got my first results now and I’m on reserve 10 where 7 have been accepted, I need 16 people to turn down the offer for me to get applied. Now this sounds unlikely, however it’s impossible to predict. People that has been reserve placed 50 has been accepted however, there are plenty of more spots to fill in autumn than spring. However, my question isn’t how big the possibility of me getting accepted is.
During my application for spring 2025, I realized I needed help of higher power, I had seen a post of King Paimon helping someone to get accepted into University and it felt nothing but right since I already have a good relationship to King Paimon, I “prayed” to him after chanting his enn (I was very tired that night, I knew he would hear me so I didn’t do a bigger invocation as I could have) I began by casting a spell jar of luck with his sigil on the jar. I wanted a stable ground since jar spells are known for working very slow (This was done 1 month before getting an answer) 1-2 weeks before the results I casted a fire spell of luck as boost of the jar, since fire works fast.
A few days ago in the morning, I was getting ready and I always listen to music while doing so. A specific song that made me daydream and thinking of King Paimon, meeting him physically you know. lol. Instantly after the song was finished, there was a bang on my door even though it was closed. Maybe he enjoyed my day dreaming or just wanted to say hi, anyway.
And then here I am, placed as reserve 10. I know that King Paimon is very strategic, knowing exactly when to make his move but I’m so anxious. 9/12 the night before the results I prayed to King Paimon before falling asleep as well as just thinking of how happy I would be to get accepted so happy tears ran down and I took the paper of his sigil on and let my tears soak in this paper to fill it with not only my energy as one of my offerings but also positive strong energy since tear are made of strong emotions, then I slept with his sigil under my pillow. I had a dream that felt so real, so, so real. I dreamt of getting accepted however when I woke up that wasn’t the case.
I had a break from the occult since 2022 because of studies so my psychic senses aren’t in prime. Last night (being sick and tired) I decided to speak to King Paimon, I chose a video on Youtube of King Paimon’s enn on repeat, randomly checking the comments and there it was. " Thank you King Paimon for helping me get accepted to university " dvdfivndfjkvdnfjkv - I opened his sigil, the one I had under my pillow - and started to meditate with the technique of 3 suns to see if we can communicate better by being in trance. It was honestly overwhelming because it was a long time I felt his energy, while being sick and tired it was difficult keeping focus. I kept hearing " burn It " and I instantly thought of the paper with his sigil on. Since I was anxious deep down I asked him directly, if he was helping me with my situation and he responded yes and then I asked if he wants me to burn the paper and he said yes, however I don’t know why since I haven’t gotten accepted yet. I know that the powers demons hold is probably greater than what we imagine, all I have in my head is to not get in the way of King Paimon since he knows what he’s doing and I don’t want to ruin it. but honestly, my hope is not that big right now.
So now that you know everything, should I do something more or let it be? Should I maybe involve another demon for this as well? It’s not like I can cast a spell on the board in University because I don’t know which people are sitting there. I will get the second and last response from University 19/12 and people who have gotten accepted has until 16/12 to give an answer. I don’t have much time left, but I will do anything that can help. As a person in stress and anxiety it’s common to not see clearly, should I just trust King Paimon? ugh… any opinions, advice and thoughts are welcome and helpful.
A huge thank you for reading this.