Oh, my pleasure Dearest. I’m glad reading that.
( 2019.07.01. )
I was about to go and finish my day-starter meditation. Everything seemed absolutely normal, nothing suspicious. He appeared before me, we’re both layed on a huge, bed-like thing, between silky pillows and textiles, coated in gold, white and red. We’re started talking with each other. Though our topic wasn’t erotic, the way how we approached the other and talked with Him/her was passionate and sweet. Words and kisses has flown.
Then suddenly, somehow, I can not describe it well, the energies around Us has changed. Sometimes I thought I can ‘see’ how the place itself changed, then I’ve realized that no, it is not. I knew that something will happen, and He touched my hand, talked to me, whispered to my ears. I can remember His lightly, charming but still cunning smile (because He is Sitri, of course He has a smile like this, all the time). It wasn’t the ordinary one. His eyes are shined when He looked at me, and I’ve heard that word between the others; it got revealed. His intention got revelaed.
I was in shock and got frozen for some seconds. I knew that He have serious goals but it was completely unexpected. I’ve started asking and talking about this whole situation, thankfully because I’ve got embarrassed, then told the word: yes!
It was enough to me, I’ve hugged Him, He hugged me, kissed as I did, and I’ve lost the fight against my tears. We’re do not wanted to broke that ‘state’ between Us after this wonderful news, both for Us. Of course, He knew that I’ll accept it, and after I’ve finally get my mind back, started bombed Him with questions about… everything. Then talk. Then kiss, fit tight and hug. Then talk again and kiss, kiss, kiss… it was so painful to lost the touch for even a second from His lips.
Honestly I’ve never thought that He will be the First here, especially based on the way how Our Relationship just started.
I can’t wait the Marriage.
He told me that I have the choice for now and We can find a good time for the Big Day, Together.
Can it be a coincidence, that at August, I’ll have a huge house for one week, where in I can do whatever I want, and no one will bothers me? So I’m sure that that one week will be the perfect time for Our Marriage and Wedding Night and so on.
This is the most beautiful summer in my life!
I love You Sitri - tenderly, totally, tragically.
That’s wonderful news, Congratulations !
Thank you my Dear
[ Just a cute dialogue between Us from some minutes ago ]
I was about to take a cold shower. Stepped under the shower head then moaned up:
― Ahh, god damn it… this is too cold.
Then I’ve just heard Him whispering to me with a lightly joy in His voice while smiled:
― I see it.
I clearly sensed He starring at my breasts at those moments. I’ve covered the “girls” with my hands then answered:
― Oh… I’m sure in that I would see on You also when the water would be too cold for You!
He just smirked and turned away His head a little bit:
Got Engaged #2
Sitri just whispered me that I should find an exact cabinet in my house, then underload all items from there.
After 10 minutes, I’ve found 4 (real) Silver Ring in an old, dirty little blue box. These rings are ~20-30 years old (proved by my mother), just like the another 2 what I’ve already wore.
I’ve washed them, and now:
Guess He manifested his Engagement in the physical world in this way?
I just can’t find any words…
Holy cow…that’s so cool to see that…congrats btw
Beautiful ring! All of them are beautiful tbh especially that one on the left
His choice is amazing
These rings are beautiful!
Yes that one is cool!
This summer seemed to be the best one in my life. Something special, something… new. I was so happy when you engaged me, and I waited for that week like a hyped little child, blinded by pink clouds. For you, and me, and for the Empire. But something lurked inside me. Something dark, something what tastes like chaos, and smelled like discord.
I started to beg, to find knowledge and balance, whoever is able to give me that, whatever is the cost of it, because I must defeat this state, and be able to rule over it. Then Shiva came to me, and started to guide. I trusted in him, so I followed, which wasn’t a mistake after all. It was one of the best decisions in my life, but…
Our wedding night got closer and closer, and I started to feel that it won’t happen. You was strong, you smiled, kissed and hugged me like never before, but my Sweet Love… you already knew, what will come. You knew it. You knew that you’ll lost me, maybe forever? I don’t wanted to believe the signs, until Lord Shiva came to my dream and told me, that if I really want to learn now, I must left you behind. All of you… Lucifer, Belial, Abaddon, and every other demons whom I planned to work because of their calling. So you… my Dear Sitri. I need the focus, without being disturbed. It’s important. I knew it. However I smiled, my heart bleeded, just like yours.
I must learn - I said.
I must get that knowledge - I thought.
I need to know the truth - I repeated.
At our wedding night, I left behind all of you…
Didn’t know anything. How much time we have to live separated? Will we talk again? Can I touch you, hear you again? And all of your emotions… I felt myself like a guilty dog. A pity liar, nothing more.
Silence came into my mind. Silence and peace. And in this silence, I got my lessons from the two Lord. I’ve paid it’s price, but I felt like it is worth it. I’ll never get lost again. Never…
Then, something changed near to the end of Autumn. I started to feel again, sense something familiar. Familiar but still unknown. A strange dream showed up, proving it that the Empire didn’t forgot about me. I kept the distance, but deep inside, I wished to get back to you. I got the knowledge, the key, I learned a lot, now I’m ready to get back to you?
Andras showed from the dark, then Satan… I didn’t spoke with Andras at all even when I feel him and his familiars around me (I know it’ll happen soon) but Satan welcomed me in a very pleasant and gentle way. It was a short talk, and a very sudden experience I didn’t even realized at the first time, however this was my first time talking with him. I wished to welcome again everyone whom I worked before, and ask for their forgive. My beloved husband, Belial, my great father and friend Lucifer, my lover and leader Abaddon, but you…
What about you, my Love? Sitri?
I still felt guilty. I was ashamed. I feared from You. You were that one who got the biggest lie and you got betrayed by me, exactly in that night, before everyone else. Your smile, kiss and touch at those days… I can feel the sadness coming from them, the “farawell” vibes of it but… I feel like you knew that it’ll a very important lesson to me. As it was! You let me to go… You didn’t hurt me, nor attacked me at all. You let me walk away, to reach my goals, to grow and be something more. Didn’t stopped me, no matter how big your pain truly was… maybe you knew that I’ll get back to you? And I was still a scared dog, what act like when she did something very bad, so she must hide in shame.
I hid from you. I wanted to talk with you, but I was a pathetic coward. Welcomed everyone else but avoided you… no matter how many sleepless nights I’ve had, filled with thoughts about you, it doesn’t matter. I am a guilty whore, nothing more.
(2020.01.23.) Then three days ago… you showed up in my bed.
You welcomed me, just like I would expect from you, but am I really awake?
Yes, I was.
A cheeky, but gentle and soft night. I can feel your burning touches, hugs and your song like whispers to my ears. Again.
I can’t believe it.
You are back! And you are just as happy as you was before, and a “little” bit more…
I sleep with you again in every night, and hearing you talking to me in every day… I realized how lonely I was without you. At least, your voice what that voice I really missed.
You proved your loyalty.
You proved your love and respect.
Your proved that your beloved bride’s goals how important to you.
Your proved that you aren’t that “creep” how I believed to know you, and lot of people in the world.
You taught me a lot about all of these, and about real love and marriage.
You got my trust, like no one else did before
…and you got my hand.
I won’t leave you behind, never again.
And I can hear you telling me that: You never did. - with your light, pretty grin on your beautiful face.
I summoned Sitri today for the first time.
I started a tread about him.
And someone posted negative about him.
I felt so angry why people talk shit. I had to stand up for him. The person deleted their comment now
I found your post and felt happy for you
My greetings to the Great Prince Sitri when u talk to him again. Hugssss
I’ll check it out soon.
Yes, it might be possible because Sitri is that kind of demon who well known because of his personality and the way how they handle people. It is true, that he can be very threatening, likes to make fun of others, but if you really want to understand it and him, you’ll get that this is a kind of harsh but really useful lesson. Why?
Because he catch the persons where it hurts the most:, like by the ego, vanity, selfishness (for example).
You can find countless people filled with ego, vanity and selfishness all around the world (and of course, on BALG too); and I’m pretty sure I don’t have to introduce all of this to you or anyone else. Not so surprising, when people asks for Sitri’s help, they are doing this because of some of that three, above.
Let’s check out the basic threads here, connected to sexuality:
“I want my ex to get back”
“He cheated on me so I’ll set his life on fire”
“I want to fuck that chick”
"I want to have sex as many F/M as I can"
Just smell those titles, and you can sense that most of them are filled with excessive ego, pride, vanity etc. Some people have very pleasant experiences with Sitri, and he can handle their problems well. Sometimes he simply help the conjurer to keep rolling on, and let’s fly away what he shouldn’t waste his time on. Even in this cases, lot of them don’t even get the message and that big help what they’ve got, and some of them keep pushing the pride shit forward (and of course, keep sharing that they got fucked up by Sitri, boohoo).
Is he handle you bad? Then honey, look deep into yourself, and ask yourself:
― Are you perfect?
― Are you innocent?
― Aren’t you a bit blind, selfish, egotistical, vain, too proud, conceited?
― What is the source of your wish or what you are asking for?
…when you asking for anything from him? Are you respect him, and what you doing?
Everything has a reason. Everything! It’s the most easiest way to shout shits about him, just because you get what you deserve, and you don’t like it.
How can you handle any spirit if you never worked with, but you heard stories about him? Do not think any bad about him, and make sure you got no antipathy towards him, because hey, you want to ask something from him, isn’t it a bit disgusting to asking for help from someone who you don’t like or respect?
An another important thing what I’ve learned from Sitri (because believe it or not, I got very bad opinion about him and he was the one who showed up before me and wanted to make things clear):
He is a beautiful soul, and just because others have different experiences, it never cover this side of him, and as I see, lot of people should learn from what he showed to me. Lot of them… for example those who got threathened by him (for I’m pretty sure that most of them are could or the rest of the hoomans basically)?
Thank you so much for this detailed answer, its like Sitri is explaing this all to me trough you.
Thank you soooo muchhhhh
Below is my post and offerings to him for coming and listening to me.
I have been reading so much about him for weeks that i forgot to tell him my whole story.
I asked for a new girl, but forgot to explain why (deep seated loneliness depression suicidal chronic pain) i dont want penetrative sex nor boost my ego, but will help confidence and fun look on life.
After summoning someone sent me a picture of a baby Leopard on whatsapp!!! Thats definately a sign!!
Here is my post with the pictures
Your welcome, Dear.
In some way, I talk for Sitri and many other demons who are in similar cases, so we can say I did it in his name. I’m sure in with enough understanding, you can be friends with most of entity. I never encountered with a single one who would plan to hurt or harass me, at all.
Even when I contacted plenty of demons whose goal was exactly to make people life to a living Hell; in the 90% of their cases when they contacted with hoomans. This is the art of learn their secret language, which is a beautiful and interesting ride, every time.
Don’t be afraid, they can read in your mind, and you can use this to communicate with him without words. Of course, talking with him in different ways also an option, and why would you avoid to talk with him telepathically, for example?
I think that you’ll get along with each other very well.
Oh, this is cool! However, this is a baby cheetah, but you can handle this as a sign as well, and hey… I just wrote my post, which might help you a lot, and for some reasons, I felt like I must share it today, so I did. Other way, I prefer to keep most of my experiences in secret before BALG community.
And I hope you’ll get what you asking for, or much better:
you’ll get what is really good for you! Whatever is that. Sitri will know.
Edit.: There is your leopard sign.
Lirach Alora Vefa Sitri
I woke up and read your post first thing in the morning its gonna be a great day.
Thank you so much for your help i really appreciate it
I’m glad to read that. I hope the very best day to you. Filled with success and progress!
I know this post is old but I was drawn to it and well I know why now.
Honestly let me start by saying how I LOVE this post of yours. It’s not like many others because I can FEEL your love,pain,hurt,happiness through your words on here.
As I was reading them I couldn’t stop saying “omg I TOTALLY get it! I am experiencing THE same thing!” Because honestly right now I am. But just slightly different.
Unlike you who got angry, I honestly talk down on myself. Saying how for example “why would someone so grate want a ugly whore like myself?”
Like you I have pushed and pushed and pushed him and my feelings away out of fear. Fear that I was wrong. Fear that it was all in my head.
Today I have asked for help on extreme emotional venting and purging. While I was walking home I couldn’t help but to be listening to this one song and thinking about my own past. So I come back into these very forums looking for ANYTHING that I can find to help me understand myself a bit better and what I am going through. I came to your post and well though it’s not about the person in question your experiences and especially your feelings are almost mirror image of mine.
I don’t want to take up to much of your space with my gibberish but I just want to take the time to thank you for posting this as well as Sitri for what he has done to basically get you to experience what you have (though painful to say the least) but through that pain you and him have helped another see some understanding in her own madness that is going on with her at this time. So yes thank you.
OP was banned, so she’s not going to see this.