In an effort to keep myself motivated, I thought it would be interesting to keep a journal about my path to rekindling my relationship with my magick. I have been extremely busy the past year, which has led me to put my magickal life aside most days. This has been extremely detrimental to my practice, my relationship with my spirit friends, and my relationship with the magickal world in general. I cannot bear it; magick is my lover, my muse, my religion. I need to get my spark back. So, here we are.
Some background:
I am extremely eclectic and curious by nature. I am also of a multicultural background, which has perhaps ignited my eclecticism. However, my practice tends to be extremely unique. I don’t just like to reinvent the wheel: I like to take it completely apart, examine it, put it back together, test it, experiment with different wheel designs, until eventually I either give up and just use the damn wheel or (and this is where it gets fun) I discover something that I find works even better. My practice largely consists of the latter. I am not that knowledgeable in western astrology, but I cannot deny my aquarius placements.
With that being said: please note that any workings and findings that I may write here (or anywhere else) will stem from my personal practice and experience. To be safe, I would say that you should take everything I say as UPG. It’s simply the nature of my practice and who I am. However, if I do eventually open my grimoire and share some of my workings, feel free to try them for yourself, and I would love to hear your experiences.
I live in a very old Victorian house that I absolutely love. This house has become a large part of my practice, and I will likely mention a lot of hearth magick throughout my entries. I may create a separate journal for my experiences with the house, as well.
I am looking forward to sharing my experiences with you all! If you are interested, I’d love to have you along for the journey.
Okay. I really need to come up with a bit of an action plan… There is a lot to be done, and I will probably need to prep quite a bit for what I have planned ahead. Honestly, I feel like I have let everything go so much that I feel as though I need a complete revamp. So, back to the basics it is, and I will work my way up from there.
First and foremost, my house is a mess. Physical hygiene is an important factor of spiritual hygiene, and I’d be willing to bet this mess is a big part of the reason why I have been feeling so yucky lately. It’s Fall Cleaning time!
Then, I should probably do some actual cleansing. I cannot even remember the last time I cleansed the house, or even myself. This is so embarrassing to admit, probably even more than the messy house part.
Then I should probably completely take apart and redo all of my wards and protections. I am not even going to bother trying to recharge them, I really need to set up fresh ones at this point. So this means: physical wards and charms, amulets, astral wards and protections, servitors and guardians…
Alongside all of this, I should probably also take the time to do at least a month of daily banishings and cleansings. At this point, I am fully convinced that there are parasites attached to me and the house, which I guess it’s to be expected after neglecting my practice for so long. Hopefully this should get rid of them and get me to a good baseline.
Then I need to have a good, solid energy replenishment, and to check up on my energy reserves and perhaps create some more. This means replenishing my actual energetic body, my talismans, physical reserves, and astral reserves. I will need them.
This is quite a bit! But I am excited to get started, as I really need to get this situation under control. I am hoping that this regimen will also be all I need to get my spark back. Sometimes you really need to take a step back, go back to the basics, and stop trying to brute force your way forward with a crumbling foundation. This plan is probably going to help me in more ways than one, so I am looking forward to it.
I suspect this will take at least a month; hopefully not much more than that, since I can batch all of the cleansing, banishing, and warding. This is the boring part. Afterwards, we can really get down to the fun stuff.
Yesterday I performed a short working in the evening. Won’t be sharing too many details yet, because it is a new relationship and I’d rather wait and see where things go and whether they prefer for me to keep things private. All I can say is that it went well enough. I feel a bit of a neutral energy as of right now, but that’s okay. I am hoping to take things further and make this an ongoing partnership in the next few weeks, but we shall see how things go.