I’ve been maintaining a journal in Google Docs and of course trying to make new threads if I have something I think could spur a discussion, but for things I think are vaguely interesting but not whole discussion-worthy, I figure I can jot them down here for fun and the benefit of all.
While I’ve been doing spiritual magick practice for several years now, this year marks the first point where I’ve ventured into working with so called “demonic” energy, darker and Goetic entities. This is concurrent to me taking an anti-anxiety SSRI, which apparently removed the abject fear I had of the darker side, and resulted in me starting in on some shadow work. Before, I used to experience a visceral reaction not unlike having an intrusive thought, and obviously, that isn’t conducive to creating a healthy ritual environment.
Before I work with the Goetia, I cast a protective circle and once I’m finished, I indicate a clear ending to the encounter. So far, I don’t think I’ve had any issues with pretenders sneaking in. I’m not doing a super formalized process, apart from KC + LBRP, since after reading several books and doing some testing, my conclusion was that Pathworking worked, so the whole high ritual song and dance wasn’t necessary.
My typical “vetting” process is to ask them to show me their sigil and then, that completed, attempt my very best to mentally go down a rabbit hole of a completely different creative imagining, something that’s naturally very easy for me. If the entity is capable of not departing even though I’m trying to switch my imagination gear to something else, then I determine that I am likely dealing with something other than my own independent thought. After all, if it were my imagination I should be capable of changing the scene at my leisure.
My very first Goetia work was a reading I did for a Redditor who worked with King Asmodeus and had no open clairs, very early this year. I did some tarot card reading and pendulum reading for them and asked if he wanted to work with me, just because I was curious and got a strong no, lol. I did not return to the demonic for some time after that as the energy just wasn’t right for me. Frankly I expect that’s because I casually called on a demonic king for someone else instead of them doing the work…
At that point, I had next to no telepathy, I was focusing entirely on my pendulum rather than trying to hear their voices.
But, it set the stage for me to eventually return, after reading a few books and getting a sense of the varying techniques, and spending way too long reading here without signing up.
The first spirit of the Goetia I actively chose to call on was Prince Stolas, and I have a couple of interesting hand-written journal notes from those encounters. He appears to be a quiet sort. I still work on and off with him. I attribute my current insatiable obsession with the occult to him. But my UPG is that he isn’t too keen on being talked about on the open internet. I selected him because I meditated and asked who was willing to work with me, I drew a sigil blindly and then looked through all of the sigils and it was close to his. At that point, my telepathy wasn’t as strong and clear as it is now, or possibly he’s just less talkative, but he certainly sparked the desire to intensely pursue more knowledge in me.
The second spirit I began to work with was President Amy, who I believe reached out to me after a sequence of synchronicities. Compared to Prince Stolas, President Amy’s voice came through very clearly. I’ve found President Amy to be a highly underrated spirit who isn’t spoken about too often online, truly a great companion for an artist, a muse and lighter of the creative spark. I have nothing but positive things to say. Since my work with the Goetic spirits is often creatively focused, I painted this picture as a tribute for President Amy. Since they don’t get a lot of art I figured I’d share it here.
However, every time I reread the books on the Goetia, I found King Paimon’s sigil jumping out at me. I saw people often spoke quite positively about him. I felt remarkably intimidated by the notion of making contact with a demonic king when I had a relatively low key contact going on with a President who was bringing me the creative inspiration and encouragement to continue studying the occult and honing my divination skills that I wanted. President Amy provided me with their insight on him and spoke of him as an impressive and wise entity. Still, since I’d only ever spoken to two entities intentionally, and since King Paimon was an artistic / knowledge spirit, I decided to say hi back on October 11th.
With my work with Amy, I’d tightened my telepathic hearing quite a bit, but he snapped me immediately into the astral. It was the first time I could both see and hear a Goetic spirit with full VR-style immersion in the astral. We had a short, civil conversation. He was nothing but gracious to have an amateur floundering through an invocation. He told me at that time that I was well suited to continue working with Amy, but invited me to return… at my leisure, if I wanted. I was afraid of the noise that I had heard was associated with him, but received none of that. He spoke to me in a low, calm voice and the environment was still and muted.
I painted this portrait of how he appeared to me on that first meeting.
About a week later, I had a go at evoking him again, just to see if I got the same sort of clarity.
I think at this point, I was still able to convince myself I was working solely with my imagination.
That’s when things started to get crazy. He invited me to keep it up, like, “All right, you want to do this, mage? Then I have a lesson for you, so buckle up, we’re doing this. Follow my lead.”
Since then, I have evoked or invoked him almost every day to continue the work.
This month has been insane. I have gone from “lol this can’t be real” to having a successful physical evocation.
Quite a lot of what he’s said, he doesn’t want me posting on the public internet. While he speaks positively of some of the members here (hat tip to some of the internet’s finest), his reasoning is that:
- He wants people to contact him themselves if they want to get to know him
- He doesn’t want your contact to be sullied by too much UPG, because what one person needs is not what another person needs to hear, and yet that may cause you to construct a block in your mind
- His work with me is not for the express purpose of gaining me prestige because I can namedrop a cool entity
However, a component of our work is that he wants me to, over time, draw the sigils of every entity in my own style, and paint a picture of every entity.
So I have decided to make a journal to place my ritual art in and ramblings that are acceptable to place on the open internet.
King Paimon’s sigil, requested to look something like it has the energy of falling / swirling sand or droplets.
/ doodling part of this website still up? 