You probably don’t have a system or any occult training.
Get trained first. Train your mind to focus, and train yourself in magickal practice.
A good, simple psychological trance training tool is Autogenic Training. I’ve touted it for years on this site. You can get the basic protocol here. Do this daily for 3 months. By the end of that time, you’ll be proficient in putting yourself into magickal trances.
Another psychic trainer i recommend to anyone who’ll listen is Brother Moloch’s Basics Of Metaphysical Empowerment.
Either of the above can help you develop your mindset for magickal trances. They don’t teach magick per se, rather they give your mindset a foundation upon which magickal practice can be built. Very important to do this.
Then, find and follow A magickal system. Meaning pick ONE and i repeat ONE training system that works. Follow it until it gains you results.
Examples of a system you can train in include:
- EA Koetting’s Magic Mastery series: Mastering Evocation, Divination, Soul Travel, and/or Kundalini
- EA’s original OAA course
- Paul Huson’s Mastering Witchcraft (some of the best mages i know swear by this book)
- Jason Miller’s Strategic Sorcery
- Don Kraig’s Modern Magic (MANY great mages cut their teeth on this book)
- Jake Stratton-Kent’s Trve Grimoire
- Geoff Gray-Cobb’s New Avatar Power system
- Cat Yronwode’s Hoodoo Correspondence course
- Martin Coleman’s Communing With The Spirits necromancy training
- Alan Chapman’s chaos magick primer
- or, Adam Blackthorne’s
- Andrieh Vitimus’ Ovayki Current
- Dr. Lazarus Corbeaux’ Santissima Muerte guide
- Lesson 11 (Autogenic Meditation), from Kai Kermani’s Autogenic Training guide
- The Farsight Institute’s FREE Remote Viewing training
- Sorceress Cagliastro’s Wednesday Night Core Class training
- Quareia’s FREE ritual magick training
- Talmadge Harper’s Art Of Manifesting course
- Lon Milo DuQuette’s Enochian Vision Magick
- Athena Wallander has many useful training courses here.
- Jason Louv’s Magick.Me chaos magick training
- and many more - look around you find them everywhere.
It’s actually kind of embarrassing how many great magickal systems are above. If you can’t get any of these working for you, magick is probably not for you.
I repeat. Pick ONE of these and apply yourself to it. Some of the above systems cost a lot, others a bit, still others ar free info that cost you nothing but time. Either way, pick ONE. Learn it inside-out and practice often. Keep at it until you get results.
At the very least, i recommend you do the experiments in Pam Grout’s books E-Squared and E-Cubed. They’ll prove to you that magick is real, as they’re based on the same psychological principles as William Burroughs’ magickal systems were - the same principles practiced by TOPY.
Don’t give up on this too quick. Start building your psychic skills, then find one system and apply yourself to it. Give it a year and see what comes of that before you pass judgment on the whole shebang. You might just surprise yourself.