Yeah me too actually, and that’s why I’ve not really tried to do this operation. I don’t understand it and it doesn’t fit with my current worldview.
In my mind, this one that is typing now IS my HGA. There’s no “higher”, but what there is is the animal, the intelligent primate I’m incarnate into. So I have two minds that are integrated into one, in a sense. The quiet voice inside I hear as my subconscious is that of the primate. It’s the one that is empathic, and we’re both psychic and telepathic.
This is an idea I’m “trying on for size” as the usual way of thinking about it is the opposite - that the consciousness is the animal and the quiet inner voice is the “higher self”. But that doesn’t always work, meaning the model is insufficient so I’m trying an updated one, basically.
I found an online summary of what a Holy Guardian Angel (HGA) is for reference, as not everyone knows this term or uses Crowley’s work:
In Thelemic belief, the HGA is seen as a manifestation of one’s truest self, a divine entity that communicates one’s True Will, the fundamental purpose of one’s existence. Unlike traditional guardian angel concepts that suggest an external protector, Thelema posits the HGA as an intrinsic part of the individual’s higher consciousness.
So in my current thinking, I might not have a place in my models for this definition of an HGA. Certainly not something personified that I could talk to as if it was human-like. It could be mapped to what I call “spirit”, which is that spark of consciousness that is part of the tao. But I don’t see that thing as being something you can communicate with, because all the tools it needs to communicate with ate in the successive layers of bodies that it’s using, which it does for the express purpose of using them to interact with different levels of reality.
What if, that spirit looking out of your eyes right now IS your HGA, in the context of using all it’s bodies in tandem to have a human experience. And that’s why you can’t find it - it’s like looking for your glasses when you’re on your head - you are what you are looking for.
I’m not a follower of Thelema and maybe I completely misunderstood the finer points of the argument and that’s all mixed up, though.
Maybe I could understand the HGA as a form of us that is using the causal layer of being. It’s not human yet by several layers - this is outside of the qi, emotional or mental layers and into a level of reality that’s very hard to access and understand. All our human tools for understanding are in those lower layers. If so, I can see why learning to communicate with that layer of yourself is so difficult. It’s completely inhuman and not designed to be understood, but it probably knows quite a lot that would be helpful. I have never tried to talk directly to any level of my being higher than the emotional level, not yet anyway.
This would actually work just with qigong. Whether or not Michael was involved, if you as a human use qi to help you perform physical feats those feats are easier and you can do more. I use qigong when running to let me run longer and harder and be less out of breath - if I cultivate qi on the in breath and direct it to a stick on the out break the stick goes away, if my legs are tired I can direct energy to them and they feel fine again, if I run y torus and suck in heaps of energy my breathing calms down, get was and regular again. All humans can do this, because all humans have a qi body and can learn qigong.
So in this case it didn’t matter if he was or wasn’t, but when you have a relationship with an energy it become easy to reach out and touch that entities energy, communicate telepathically and ask for help. Most religions call this praying but have rules around what you’re allowed to ask for that preclude help like this, because its self serving or something, but it’s possible.
We talk about the concept of what I call the “personal astral” and the “shared astral”. So entities can share experiences in the shared astral. Imagination rests in the personal astral, it’s n ot shred, entities and other humans aren’t aware of what you are experiencing, so it’s isolated and nota group effort. It’s private. You can make a private thing shared by just exposing the knowledge of it though and then were back to shared locations and experiences.
So, blue skying here: lets say this chap did contact Michael - then Michael and he may have shared that astral space where Michael helped him by influencing his qi to perform better. I wasn’t there, but that’s my guess at a mechanism that would work.