Ok first I apologize for my language, I do not write often in English. But i’ll do my best !
So i’ve been a “witch” for 2 years now , i’ve already met Bad/Good spirits, interact with deity etc… But before being a “witch” and all i always been fascinated by demons (since i’m a kid) and one of them in particular, the king Belial ! Since i’m a “witch” and work with deity i see his name everywhere, saw his sigil and weird stuff in my dreams and i always have this video in suggestion on YouTube “Belial Enn Chanting”.
I was planning to start working with goetic demon so i do some tarot spread to know wich demon i’ll choose for starting … And it was Belial again , cards were meaning that he wanted the best for me, to make me strong and regain my self confidence that I lost… Ok it’s sound pretty positive but in the other hand my friends are always telling me to don’t trust him, to not do anything with him… And i’m pretty lost, i often do tarot reading for Belial since 4 month he always give me good advice idk he’s like the dad i never had (that’s pretty strange no ?). Last night i did an other tarot reading for him and he told me to go meditate (i thought it was because i wasn’t feeling pretty good last day) and something come in my mind “hey why u don’t write Belial’s sigil on your hand before meditate ?” So i did it. I like to listen to calm music during my meditation and i saw the video of the Enn so … I listen to it and something strange happen, suddenly I felt a tension in the air , it was like someone was looking at me, my eyes were closed but it was like there was someone in front of me. I was sooo scared , i stop the video (my eyes were always close i didn’t want to open them) and stay like this for 20 minutes. All of those things disapear suddenly and i open my eyes.
So, i don’t really know what to do with him , with this experience and my friends always telling me “that’s stupide you can’t trust a demon he’s just a manipulator” but also tell me to try an evocation with him … I don’t know if i’m ready to do an evocation, it scare me a lot but at the same time i feel like i’m missing something…
What’s your opinion and advice ? Hope my message was clear ! Have a nice day ~