I believe a spirit contacted me in a dream last night, but as I am a complete beginner, I would like confirmation if possible. I apologize in advance for the length of this post.
Sadly, I don’t remember as much about the dream as I would like, but I’ll recount what I do to the best of my ability.
The dream started with me in bed and I started to hear what sounded like coins dropping and hitting a hard surface somewhat regularly, and then a sound of rustling and quiet moaning.
My vision then started to morph as I stared at my ceiling, so I thought I was hallucinating. A male spirit then appeared above my bed, but he was very hard to see and hear. I was uneasy at first, but I was not afraid of him.
He told me his name, which had two parts and I don’t remember it, and we spoke for a while before the dream changed locations and the spirit materialized into human form.
He appeared as a handsome, white man in his late 20’s or early 30’s with short brown hair and no facial hair. He was neatly dressed, and had no supernatural features that I was aware of. We spoke for a long time, but I don’t remember much of it. I think I called him Azazel, but I’m not entirely sure.
He was very mild mannered, and seemed to have a good sense of humor, but I could tell he could be severe if pushed.
I asked him why he contacted me, and he told me that he liked people who were open with their beliefs and he liked that I had gone from Judaism to Atheism to whatever I am now (beginner Left hand path member I guess).
He told me he was a god of strength and knowledge, and he put me through a trial which tested both of those attributes. I had to cross a chasm to reach him using a hand crank attached to a wire. I didn’t have the raw strength to move it, so I started thinking of a way to work smarter. I never managed to reach him, or really move forward at all, but my will never broke and I was very determined to do so. There were many others attempting the same task.
At one point in the dream, there were multiple versions of him sitting around a table (maybe 5 or 6 not including his main self). They all had different clothes and different hair, but all looked like him.
At another point, when he was ethereal, he tried to enter my chest, upon which my hands were placed, blocking him. He was insistent but not forceful, yet I did not remove my hands for I was afraid I did not completely understand his nature, and I feel a connection to Lilith, which I did not wish to betray.
I have not contacted or been contacted by Lilith yet, but I felt a very strong pull toward her that made me obsessively read anything I could on her, and I thought about her almost constantly for a while. That pull is what moved me away from atheism towards the Left hand path in the first place.
I asked him about Lilith, but I do not remember his answer. I also asked about working with other spirits, but he gave me a non answer.
He could see past my male body and tell that I was a girl: I’m MtF trans, and he even showed me a vision of what I might look like as a girl through what I think was a mirror. This made me so happy I cried.
He proposed a deal to me, and I remember saying “I agree” after some hesitation, but I can’t recall what I agreed to.
So I guess what I want to know is: was this a spirit contacting me, if so does it sound like azazel, and how do I contact him without offending Lilith?
P.S I’m so new that I can’t really feel energy and don’t feel ready for an invocation.