I’m really excited to share this with you, as I believe I have had my first ever(!) success using E.A’s sigil opening technique. Advance warning though: massively loooong post ahead!
Right, firstly I feel I need to explain myself and give you all a bit of history regarding my situation with spirits. Well, basically, my experiences with spiritual entities over the years has been rather limited. I guess this is partly due to the fact that I never really felt an urgent need to call on a spirit for help regarding my life circumstances etc, because during the past decade or so, I have become really good at manifesting things in my life either by simply using visualization and the LoA, or my own spells and rituals. At times it is enough for me just to think of what I want- and this will manifest in my life. I’m not saying this to brag, I am just trying to truthfully explain my situation.
The main reason for my hesitation to call upon spirits, however, was related to my mental health issues. For as long as I can remember, I have suffered from a number of different issues- depression, anxiety, OCD and paranoia. Now, my reasoning behind avoiding evocation etc, was that I was scared that rather than having a positive effect on my life, the whole experience might exacerbate my paranoia and anxiety. I told myself that I would start performing evocations once I had sorted my head out, and got my issues under control, because tbh, even though I didn’t feel an urgent need to summon spirits to help me in my personal life, it’s something I really really wanted to do. Over the years I have read up on the subject, studied different entities etc. Like most others on this forum, the class of spirit that has most interested me is the demonic- I have always had immense respect for these beings, and it always frustrated me that I couldn’t make contact with them due to my illness.
Now if any of you have read any of my previous posts where I reported success with spirits, you may be wondering what is going on. So, the explanation is that, even though I’ve been afraid to contact spirits in the normal way, via evocation, I didn’t have the same reservations about contacting them psychically, using my own methods (and by my own- I mean just whatever feels right to me at the time, based on info that I’d learned and then using my intuition to guide me). So what’s the difference you may ask? Well, tbh, I don’t even really know myself- I admit that it’s not really logical. I guess it just somehow feels ‘safer’ (safer as in for my paranoia) using my own methods. This is the thing with OCD and anxiety- some things just ‘feel’ better than others, even if there is no logic to it. So, anyway, for the past few months I have been trying to psychically make contact with two entities, whom I have felt drawn to for quite a few years now: King Belial and the Goddess Isis. Anyway, I won’t go into too much detail about this now, as obviously this post is about the Archangel Raziel, but so far, even though I cannot yet hear or see those two entities, I do feel that I have made some sort of contact with them. Isis has come through for me on a number of occasions- I posted about one particular occasion on this forum in fact, and I sense Belial’s influence in my life.
Anyway, I feel like I’m babbling on and on, but I really wanted to start this post with that little introduction- I really felt I just needed to get that out there, sort of to summarize ‘where I’m at’ re spirit work. So, the time has finally come for me to take all this to the next level- to start working towards full on evocations. I’m at a point now where things are going well for me, and I’ve sort of got my issues under control- not 100%, but more so than previously. Also, I currently have loads of free time on my hands, so I really have the time and energy to put into my studies and practice. I decided that I would start by opening sigils (an obvious place to start I guess), and then work up to evocation. I’ll admit that I have, on one occasion, tried to open a spirit sigil before. It started to ‘flash’ and I gave the request to the spirit, but it did not materialize. In hindsight I reckon it was because I approached the wrong entity for the specific task.
Anyway… The ‘thing’ that I’m currently into is trying to gain more insight into the nature of the different realities, the nature of the different planes of existence, and especially how it relates to art (this is of particular interest to me, being a musician). I know it all sounds a bit vague but that’s the best way I can describe it. A few weeks ago Arcane wrote a piece on the Archangel Raziel for the Monday Post. As I was reading about the characteristics of this angel- Raziel is an angel of wisdom, the ruler of Chokmah, ’ and the ‘Keeper of Secrets’- I just knew that this was an entity I needed to work with. I struggled to find the correct sigil for Raziel, but Arcane kindly informed me that his sigil is in Evoking Eternity, which coincidentally I was planning on buying that week anyway- what luck!
So, a few days ago I opened his sigil. At this point it would probably be a good idea to add a little disclaimer: I concede that it is entirely possible that I in fact failed at my attempt to contact this angel, that possibly, the information I received was in fact not from Raziel, just random nonsense from my subconscious. I would absolutely hate to offend this Archangel by wrongly attributing info to him (when it’s possible that it’s just some bullshit my crazy mind made up) -so this is why I’ve added this ‘disclaimer’. Also, a lot of the info that I received was related to astronomy etc, which I admit I had recently been viewing a lot of vids on- so of course my rational mind is saying ‘of course you would ‘receive’ info regarding gravity, dark energy etc- you watched a documentary about that just last week’. But then I’ve got the other, hopeful part of my mind going ‘OR, maybe this is how the Raziel chose to share these insights with you, in these particular terms, because you’ve recently been researching this’. Anyway, I am going to chose to believe that I did in fact make contact with him, and I’d like to share what he ‘told’ me.
Right, so I was gazing at the sigil, and eventually it started to flash. I told Raziel what I was seeking knowledge about. Since I cannot hear or see spirits yet, I thought it might be a good idea to try the method that I’ve used when ‘communicating’ with Goddess Isis, which is: sometimes when I am giving her an incense offering, I start meditating and mentally ask her a question, suddenly ideas just start flooding into my mind, and I intuitively understand whatever concept she is trying to get across to me- I’ll then get out my journal and the words will just sort of pour out of me unto the page.
So after opening Raziel’s sigil, I had my journal out, pen in hand, but for a while nothing happened. But then, a few moments later, information/ideas/concepts just starting flooding into my mind. Below is a summary of my understanding of what Raziel was trying to convey to me:
Basically, I believe that since I had asked Raziel for knowledge on the nature of reality, and specifically the so-called ‘higher’ planes of existence, he was starting out by providing me with a better understanding of the forces that have shaped, and continue shaping, the physical plane. So here goes (this is my current understanding of it anyway):
There exists, in this universe, two prominent forces or laws- one is a force of attraction, and the other, it’s opposite- that of repulsion or expansion. It is a primordial duality. The ‘attractive law’ manifests in various different ways. One expression of the ‘attractive’ law- is the force known as gravity- that scientifically recognized force which we are all obviously aware of. Another expression of it, is what is known in occult/ New Age circles as the ‘Law of Attraction’ - as in, the phenomena of attracting into your reality whatever your thoughts give the most energy to (which is obviously, at this point not recognized by the scientific community). Personally I have been into the LoA for so long, but it has never before occurred to me that it may be related to ‘gravity’. It was made clear to me though that we should not think about gravity as a physical phenomena in the sense that it is somehow a consequence of matter or the physical universe, but rather that it is a force that is responsible for the formation of matter in the first place. When I subsequently looked this up on wikipedia the info I found seemed to corroborate this: ‘Gravity or gravitation is a natural phenomenon by which all things attract one another including stars, planets, galaxies and even light and sub-atomic particles. Gravity is responsible for the formation of the universe (e.g. creating spheres of hydrogen, igniting them under pressure to form stars and grouping them in to galaxies). Gravity is a cause of time dilation (time lapses more slowly in strong gravitation). Without gravity, the universe would be without thermal energy and composed only of equally spaced particles.’
This ‘attractive law’ is also the underlying reason why, for example, cities form, crowds gather, people gather ‘likes’ on facebook, people become famous etc. Of course there may be more immediately obvious practical or psychological reasons for the these phenomena- cities expand due to there being more work there etc- but the way I understand it is that the attractive law is the root cause of it all. Why do animals (human beings included) form communities in the first place? Why the urge for companionship? From a scientific point of view It’s to ensure the survival of the species, but take a step back and ask ‘why do living creatures have the urge to reproduce in the first place? Why is the urge always toward life, to existence, rather than it’s opposite death?’
Anyway, moving on to more info that I received re the attractive force: When matter forms as a result of this ‘attraction’- it becomes less pure. Not pure in a moral sense, but pure as in less ‘of it’s essence’. Take a water molecule for example: two hydrogen atoms bonded to an oxygen atom- that water molecule consists of hydrogen AND oxygen and in that way is less ‘pure’ (I really hope this makes sense lol). I asked Raziel if this was the reason why most people in this world are so sheep like, why people find it difficult to think for themselves. This was the exact response that I wrote down in my journal: ‘Most people do not have pure thoughts- they “pull in” fragments of other opinions’. Again I was reminded that the word purity is being used in this case without any moral connotations.
We, as human beings, are also exuding this ‘attractive’ force. In the same way that a planet, for example, pulls into its orbit pieces of cosmic debris, so too do we pull in fragments of emotions. This would explain why, for example, after spending time with very negative people, we start feeling this way ourselves.
Now regarding the opposite force- the force of repulsion- one of the ways in which it manifests is in so called ‘Dark Energy’. This is the definition google supplies for Dark Energy: ‘a theoretical form of energy postulated to act in opposition to gravity and to occupy the entire universe, accounting for most of the energy in it and causing its expansion to accelerate.’
I didn’t receive a whole lot more of info regarding this force of repulsion except that we as humans are in essence a combination of both this and the attractive force. This would explain why, for example, just as much as we need companionship we also crave it’s opposite, solitude, ‘alone time’, peace and quiet away from the crowds.
Well, this is what I’ve got so far. I had got the impression that next time we talk, we would move on to the other planes, starting with the astral. So, I’d love to know: what do you guys make of all this? Have I officially gone loony lol, or is there something in all this? Would love to hear any thoughts
Oh, I also wanted to add that the ‘vibe’ I got (a sort of psychic impression- as I’ve mentioned before I cannot yet see spirits) from this Archangel was that of an entity that loves knowlegde, and loves to pass it on. Sort of like an enthusiastic college professor that simply loves to share their knowledge with their students. Also, I got a very non-judgemental vibe from Raziel, which I really liked. Oh and also probably should add that I did ask if I could share this info, and got the impression that it was absolutely OK and even encouraged.