Well you see, thats the thing. I know his actual name. He just doesn’t like me to say it unless we are alone. Learned that quick. I know his favorote color, favorite scent, favorite food(im not sure why he has one), his zodiac, the dayof the week he feels strongest one, the day he deems his birthday(i asked what day he wanted it held on cuz i wanted to bake him cake) his fave day of the week, that he likes cuddling, that he likes my singing, his goal in regards to me, his basic feelings toward the other spirits in my little family, and i have heard his voice. Really, I think the only things i dont know is how to interact with him in bed and what he looks like. I keep getting told that im not ready yet, but i want to beeeeeeee ready. Its frustrating.
And as for the lust and let go thing. Thats not an option for us. He is bound to my spirit, permenantly. I just want to romance him and show him how much i adore him but it’s so frustrating when it feels like im failing.
P.s. what do u mean by consecrating a toy???