As people who deal with the occult, most of you already know that a physical body doesn’t necessarily mean that “padronized” things have to be inside it. Having a human body doesn’t mean that you are human.
As myself, for example, am not able to control all of the four elements, I’m not a microcosm, or a tiny universe, the four elements don’t spin around my spirit. I went trough bad times before I realized it and how this affected my magick.
One day I saw a topic about incarnated elementals on a book by Dion Fortune, that is people who are born with a self, an essence, that isn’t human at all. I began to experience with my magick, which was most based on the powers of darkness, and began attuning myself with nature and it’s elementals, till’ I found my true self.
When that happened all of the missing puzzle pieces came to its places, I understood why I never could keep a job for too long, why my relationships were devastated because of my fierce personality, why my morals and ethics seemed to be unique since ever even though I was raised in a Catholic School and Family.
I discovered that I am not a microcosm, I don’t have all four elements at my disposal, but one, or even two, while the rest escape me every time I get closer.
I thought about suicide countless times because I don’t feel like I belong here, in this plane of existence. And when I began finding things out, the dreams started, about the elemental dimension and it’s creatures, and I was for sure that my self isn’t human.