Yes, I think that’s probably accurate: that’s why I did the evocation within an astral temple, rather than assuming I could pull it into communicable form outside myself in the regular reality.
I’m walking a line here between what’s “real” and what’s not even more than with any regular evocation, and I chose the astral so I could call up an interface, an interactive aspect, instead of trying to take a non-seperate part of myself and project it outwardly. That might be possible, but this seemed simpler.
I completed the first evocation early today and it was almost exactly like communicating with a ghost - she was dazed like someone sleepwalking or in a deep trance, reactive, and seemed to be entirely made of emotion with no perceivable conscious intellect or ability to track complex thoughts in linear time (which fits my understanding of the subconscious from both traditional psychodynamic teaching, and Maltz’s theories).
Before doing the work, I’d called forth my PD and lay on my bed with a drumming track playing, and projected both of us into my astral temple and kind of went round reinforcing and re-visualising all that so it was very strong and felt very real.
Then I set the general intention to call forth my own subconscious in human form, structured a very simple female outline onto a couch in my temple, and pushed what felt and looked like ectoplasm out from the chakra at the base of my skull, an idea I took from this post, and also from my solar plexus.
At first she was so dazed and also hazed with darkish grey, which in my astral experiences isn’t a helpful colour, so I projected universal Love & Light into her (a standard healing method for trapped shades in psychopomp work) and she lightened, and then began to be more responsive.
At that point, she started trying to crawl back into my solar plexus and I had to hold her with my hands on her upper arms: she appeared like a smaller version of me with very light hair and skin, and draped in foggy white vapour.
She made inarticulate sounds, but she didn’t use whole words and I don’t think she has the ability, because the moment that forms it become part of the conscious intellect and not the sub.c., I think she can only receive conscious impressions and then project forth emotion and energy reactive to them - the Law of Gender in the Kybalion would make her to some extent the ultimate “feminine” form of the human soul, completely passive and receptive, and also the route through which the conscious mind generates things into manifestation - which is why bugs in your sub.c. can mess up even the most carefully planned projects. That’s just theory though.
Back to the work, because she kept trying to crawl back into me, I held her ghostly-looking form between my hands and the stuff I projected into her next was taken directly from Robert Bruce’s book Practical Psychic Self-Defense because it had come up so synchonicitously on here, the core affirmation of, “I am loved and I am worthy. I am safe and I am free. I am powerfully protected. I am master of my body and ruler of my mind.”
I added a few other things specific to issues I know I have, and then I was feeling tired so I let her draw herself back inside me, visualised her being “rattled in” (a technique from core shamanism where you use a rattle and visualise the sound waves binding energy into the person you’re working on) and returned to normal awareness: after a quick drink of water and taking some notes I had a catnap, and had probably THE best sleep I’ve ever fitted into 4 hours in my life.
I slept so well and woke up feeling incredibly peaceful, powerful, and balanced, and hours later I still feel remarkably relaxed and energised - for example, earlier I was feeling quite enthusiastic about tackling a tedious and messy household project I’ve been putting off for months.
This feels more like a standard self-help method taken into overdrive than a directly occult experience along the lines of calling down demonic consciousness into form, but it definitely did something positive and I’m going to do some more work now I have the basic concept sorted.
Then, once I’ve provided as much positivity along those lines to eradicate unwanted programming as I think is possible, I’m going to see about implanting one core idea in “her” to see if that comes into manifestation.
I’d rate it as a success so far, the hardest part is remembering that “she” can’t actually intellectualise even as much as a dog can, so all projections need to be simple, “in the moment” concepts, obviously positive (you never use negative statements in regular affirmations either) because I don’t think that what I interacted with could understand even as simple a concept as “don’t want.”
I might also see about making some sigils, A O Spare style, and projecting those right into her to see what happens, and a few other things based on my personal symbol-set.
Anyway, any major bit of work you walk away from with all your marbles is a successful work IMO, doubly so when you’re calling forth bits of yourself, and this most definitely felt like it changed some things inside in a positive manner.
The only skill I think it requires is a strong visualisation ability, a well-formed astral temple you can work in without distractions, and basic understanding of affirmations (don’t phrase them in the negative, use words that appeal to you, etc.) so this is probably something other people could try reasonably easily, though it might be a good idea to wait and see if I start cracking up in the next few days. 