Please, do your introduction first, before you post anything else again.
I’m sorry for your loss.
In my opinion, after this big loss, you should learn from your mistake, and didn’t jump into it again. Find someone who can support you in this case financially, to get you back on your feet. Although this whole story is… illogical. If you’re lost all of your money, why would you need correct numbers?
Furthermore, you should get rid of this addiction as well, as soon as possible. There are lot of people who are lost more than their money; some of them lost also their own houses, friends, family and their health.