Personally I insist I should do no harm under most circumstances. There have been times when I’ve broken my own rule but most of the time I stick to it.
The exception is, if someone were to break into my house armed or if someone were to threaten the lives of my family and my loved ones.
But having thought about it, that’s precisely what’s happened, and worse.
I’ve got demons and other strong entities attacking me at night, and it’s gotten worse since I emailed E.A. I’ll post about that in a bit.
There’s an ex-human neg attached to me, and he’s refusing to budge. My bodies, mind and inner peace are compromised/breached. Some members of my family have been affected to some degree as well.
So it’s time to bring out the big guns. My gun is puny but I can trade up right?
As some of you may have realised, I’m pretty new to this magick stuff. I’d used it once 5 years ago when I’d lost control of myself and I swore I’d never use magick to hurt someone again, but it’s time to stop beating myself up and get over it. I still don’t intend to specialise in the darker side of magick but I accept it can be useful at times.
Robert tells me I need to learn how to defend myself using magick and that I should read Initiation to Hermetics. I’ve started reading it.
I have E.A.'s ebook too.
And I’ve started practising controlling my thoughts because the neg has full access to my mind and thoughts and can control them to some extent, unfortunately.
The biggest problem right now is whoever is behind this, sending these demons to me, has gotten a lot angrier now. The bastard will keep.
For the last 3 nights I’ve been forced to stay awake via energy body attacks and my mind has been prevented from falling asleep whilst I’m in my bedroom. As a result I’ve been getting maybe 4-6 hours of broken sleep each night. Yet I can still function during the day. smirk But sleep deprivation actually weakens me, so it needs to be stopped.
Last night I was driven from my bedroom by strong attacks. At first I thought it was the neg. It wasn’t. I saw clairvoyantly a tall and skinny male rapidly “eating dinner” in my bedroom. He was absolutely scoffing and weirdly enough I even saw him using a plate with cutlery!!! He was wearing a purple robe with yellow stars on it, and I felt a sudden jolt of fear and revulsion in my gut at the sight of him. So it’s not a demon per se but it’s a powerful entity whose attacks were much stronger than the ones I often endure from the neg.
I went into the living room and fell asleep in the armchair. The entity didn’t follow me into the living room as far as I could tell.
Do any of you recognise this entity type? I couldn’t get him to leave and he was trying in vain to separate me from my body mainly through my crown and torso.