It’s been a couple months since I’ve been here. But, over all I’ve spent a lot of time learning.
So, what caused me to leave was Christian influence again. I don’t regret it. I was able to grow certain mystical sides within me as a Catholic mystic. I was growing in supernatural experiences such as visions and in self-control (as well as my skill in the theta-gamma sync). In my absence I was confirmed in the Catholic Church, this is when the priest anoints me with oil as a symbol of the Holy Spirit entering me and then he puts his hand on my head and seals me in the Spirit and I gain gifts. This, along with baptism, is believed to create an indelible mark on the soul. This means that I will always be technically a Catholic, even if I fall away.
Recently, in my deep studies, I came across some interesting information that has made me question the validity of the Catholic Church. The Church teaches that she is divinely prevented from teaching error or changing doctrine. But, I have found at least two examples in the History of the Church where they have done exactly that in recent centuries.
It bothered me, and I had a lot of soul searching to do. I sat on this information for about a month before making any kind of decision. I now know what I have to do, and next week I’m meeting with the pastor of my parish, Fr. Remi, who was also my spiritual director, and tell him about my findings. Then, I plan on just not going to church anymore.
I don’t know if I’m ready to dive immediately back into spirituality now. I want to hang around BALG, I like you guys, and I’ll be slowly moving back into my old clothes. You can think of me as Ashton+1, I have many more insights about deities and various concepts.
Currently, I’m just working on my divination skills. The true prophet should be able to use anything to divine, from the people they pass on their way home to the trajectory and speed of wind. The only requirement is a magical mind that sees connections everywhere, i.e. the theta-gamma sync.
Oh, cool story, so a couple years I decided to use the Law of Attraction to find me the perfect boyfriend. So, I wrote out a list of characteristics and wrote a title on top of the page called, “My Perfect Boyfriend.” Yeah, original, I know.
So, I kept this in a secret compartment in my wallet at all times. So, I totally forget about it, and recently I’ve been looking for a new boyfriend and have found someone who I practically fell in love with at first sight, even though he isn’t really my type. Suddenly, I remembered about the list I made and I pulled it out and read through it and I was like, “Oh my God! It’s him! This describes him!” Needless to say, I’m pretty stoked about the whole thing. However, I did divination about the whole situation, and it said that it would fall apart and I would end up with a broken heart. But it would be for the best, because I would be in a new place that I wouldn’t be able to get without going through him. So, I was like, “Screw fate, I’m going to go for it.”
So, to end this essay, I’m glad to be back. Thank you guys for being an awesome community and I can’t wait to see how things go.