Growing up I had a rough life, as most of us do! Due to abandonment, To never knowing my father, Not being able to live with my mother, and moving from family member to family member. Day in and day out I felt so much hatred and anger within me, because I felt alone… I had no one. So I started to use all of this negativity and rage as a weapon/defense against anyone whom I felt I should, But I wasn’t aware of this until now! I would stare at anyone who upset me never saying a word just simply staring and letting them know that I was going to destroy them.
Throughout my school years I would get into a ton of trouble…
Just as any kid would who didn’t understand his purpose in life or why any of it mattered, I just wanted to fit in.
I finally reached highschool it wasn’t what I thought it would be but I made the best of it… and teachers didn’t like this so they would call home every single day… I grew tired of this and addressed everyone of them. I instilled fear into their hearts but also they had a sort of respect for me, which was a plus but it still didn’t feel right.
Even the kids in school all knew who I was because of my stare… The same stare I gave to all that disrespected me.
One day I recieved a phone call home! I wasn’t worried but then I was told that a teacher said she was scared for her life. Why you ask all because of this simple stare I do.
Now I never paid any attention to it I just did it and it worked but at what cost… Did I want to forever be seen as someone whom you should fear or love.
I pondered on this for a very, very long time and in the end it made me who I am today.
But I still do utilize this skill today just only when deemed necessary.