So I was going to post this a few days ago forgot and now I added on to it so it may read like my crazy ramblings but bear with me, please.
tl;dr Eiseth Zenanim is awesome, and I’m gonna work with her more.
My sexuality was completely of control and pretty negative. It got to the point where it was interfering with my life. For some time I found myself drawn to this- https://vkjehannum.wordpress.com/2016/06/13/935/. Seems to be the only good information about Eiseth Zenanim on the whole damn internet. I kept returning to reread the same information over and over. Eventually, the idea that she was calling out to me entered my thick head. I don’t know why but she seems so… I don’t know …pleasing. Like I sense harshness, but it’s not directed at me and something like benevolent curiosity about me. Like cotton over metal if that makes sense.
I didn’t even do an evocation I just drew and opened her sigil chanted her enn a few times, and asked that she vampyricly heal my sexuality. Read that Aisha Qandisha (mask of Eiseth?) means “loving to be showered in sperm” so I thought to give an offering of jizz. I got an impression that this was a good idea, so I did it. I think she healed me my sacral chakra feels at peace, and my thoughts are clearer.
My thoughts that were troubling me seem to have been removed. Like the thoughts that pop into my mind are different. Trying to think as I used to out of habit feels weird now. She changed me. If I’m repeating myself it’s because I’m very excited.
I think I’ll work with her more in the future, it seems like she’s drawing me in or something. I asked her for signs last night and I immediately got the thought in my mind “YES” and next morning I got one of those sketchy text messages that look like a poorly concealed prostitution ads (she’s associated with sacred prostitution). I also noticed more black birds near me than usual. I’m thinking this Saturday I’ll evoke her. To prepare, I’ll evoke Paralda on Friday to strengthen my psychic senses. I’m strangely excited about this.