I’m sorry to read this, and that I missed replying to your post before now.
I’m pretty rushed off my feet right now but maybe I can share some of the stuff which has helped me figure things out shortly. There is NOTHING wrong with wanting material comforts, status, and pleasure, and the idea these are wrong often comes from misconceptions of what are fundamentally Hindu beliefs about renunciation of the world, yet within that worldview, the pursuit of material success, personal advancement, and so on, are acknowledged as legitimate goals.
Meanwhile, does any of this click with you? Urgent Warning About "The Law Of Attraction" ⚠
Because that is a method which is very focused upon improving one’s material life and personality, and inner wellbeing, and not on judging yourself for being the human you were born to be. 