Firstly I started this path before writing was ever a desire of mine, writing actually was never a aim of mine, I developed the ability to merely convey my experience and knowledge, it then went from there. I also am not here for a ego trip nor do I want to be some kind of guru, quite the opposite actually I prefer no ranks, nor titles I merely believe in “the individual” and the concept of collaboration between individuals on this forum to help one another. So my rituals are creepy ?, blood rites, rituals in cemeteries ?. I don’t see that as creepy at all and I don’t mention cemeteries all that often either, actually my work in necromancy is the opposite instead of hanging out amongst the graves, I work on bringing those forces to the temple. You also state most of my writings come from YouTube, that’s interesting as if you’ve actually read my work, it’s all from experience. My contributions to the gatekeeper compendiums for example are actually like journals, detailing the exact experiences I had and what I gained from it and how it benefited me and how it can benefit the reader too. On the topic of “The underlining death current” which you so eloquently state makes no sense, allow me to further explain. This isn’t multiple rivers of death as you put it, nor am I stating it surrounds us. All things in the astral planes, flow like circuits as the astral plane is a place of energy and motion. Therefore various realms, kingdoms and so forth, are at their core currents of energy. There exists a current of death however, that actually flows further than just the astral plane, the concept of a river of death isn’t anything new, but it is more of a current of death as a actual force. Now apparently cause of that gnosis I’m meant to wear a cape and speak in a different accent, no I don’t think so. You state this is all about selling books, to those that enjoy comics and video games, well that’s your opinion. This isn’t about selling books it never was, look at my posts here going back years and years, full of information I gave away for free, I do this stuff because I love it, cause it’s a part of my life. You also state that I want others to join me in a dark, lifeless universe which flows all around us etc. In actuality I don’t want anyone to join in that type of thing, cause I am not in that type of world. I have family, friends, happiness, there are light moments, dark moments like any other person. I believe death and life should be embraced equally. I am not posting to sell, you state that I should post to educate, maybe look at the other lists of posts I’ve done. If someone asks about something I don’t go posting a link to “buy my book” either. Apparently your stating the ritual I am planning is merely calling all forces of chaos and darkness into this world, not true either.
Now you’re criticising me cause my writing “is like dark poetry” it’s just my style of writing, it’s even the way I talk sometimes, I ain’t gonna change that just cause it may seem overly “poetic” to you. So this is about an ego trip you say ? Did you read the post at all, it isn’t about me, it isn’t about “Join me in this ritual cause I am the one with the way, I am the only one with the answers”. You also state that all this is to impress the unknowledgeable about what a talented writer I am. I hate to bust your bubble but yet again this isn’t the case, you state this sounds like a bad horror flick from the 1950s more than a ritual. Does it really ? Oh awesome do me a favour show me the movie where a 21 year old welsh black magician, joined a forum and has a awesome ritual he believes would be great to bring others who may be interested in his ritual to perform it with him. Cause I’ve never seen that horror flick, I’ll be honest doesn’t sound much like a horror of the 1950s, I don’t remember mentioning murder, aliens, oversized animals/insects. I’d be interested in seeing that 1950s movie about me though if possible, please be a pal and show us all . I’d also like to state that just cause you may not resonate with what I post, or with what I do or maybe who I am. I want you to know something, “I don’t give a fuck ” I am not here to impress, I am not here to get attention.
I am here because I always wanted something like this forum when I first started out in magick, I love the amazing concepts and theories here. The stories and experiences of other magicians, to talk about our similar experiences, the support and collaboration of all us brothers and sisters that come together to further all of our development. To help those that don’t have the money for books, courses and such, to give them a helping hand that we wish we had in the beginning.
I love that I get to share my work here and so many here have supported me greatly, advising me, giving me ideas, even messaging me with similar experiences and telling me things I may have missed out on.
I love the fact that this forum allows us all to socialise with people with the similar beliefs, practices and such. I have made great friends from this forum, one of which actually came to my wedding and I met the guy on here and met him and became best of friends.
Like I said though, just because you have a specific outlook doesn’t mean that’s the whole truth, look at subjective reality maybe you’ll understand what I’m talking about.
Kind regards