Dear friend, this might sound cliche, obvious or dun, but please, please be strong. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through but I am so sorry you’re going through it. I, myself am very new to this and started off feeling desperate as well. That’s the hardest part and you do admit that you’re feeling desperation right now so let’s start there. Understandably, an upcoming court case that holds your future can FEEL like pending soon, however, please, and I know you’re gonna say, well duh, I tried that but it’s not helping but don’t try. Just do. Your court case that’s coming up, be strong about it, be optimistic about it. See yourself coming out victorious. Don’t hope for it, visualize it. Feel that is real and focus on that. Don’t lose that confidence. It’s much harder than it sounds, I know, but trust me, I’m very new to this and clinging onto how bad I was feeling, how I was betrayed etc, only fed the flames of anger and resentment in my heart. It wasn’t until I forgave the one I love and I mean, really forgave him, that the love took over, it wasn’t until I changed myself and stopped begging him to come back that he noticed me again, it wasn’t until I displayed feelings of happiness, joy and self love that he showed more interest and now texts me more, acts sweet, etc. I made a vow one day last month that I wasn’t going to cry anymore, I wasn’t going to sulk anymore because I KNEW he was gonna come back. I didn’t hope, I just knew. And he’s not even back yet but the amount of progress I’ve made since taking this stance has proven to me that only self love, 100% heartfelt belief in your intention and letting it go brings it to you. That’s not to say not to think about your court case, but from now until the case happens, please, spend time with yourself. Ask for help restoring your faith, to help you let go of the situation, be kind to yourself, affirm in the mirror everyday that you deserve happiness and you WILL be victorious in the case and you will. You have to let the outcome go. It’s ok to think of it, it’s okay to affirm that it will work on your favor but the moment any thoughts of negativity come in, check yourself and let it go. Treat it as a passing thought and don’t let it get you off track. Think of your outcome as holding sand in your hand. If you make a tight fist with sand, what happens? The sand quicky escapes through the openings of your hand, but hold the sand in an open hand not holding it tightly and what happens? The sand is on your hand. It’s yours. Don’t attach yourself to lusting for a result. KNOW that this result WILL work out in your favor and take this time to love yourself and be kinder to yourself and watch what happens. Stay well my dear friend. I’ll research different demons that may be able to help you release the outcome, but in the meantime, please be well.