I just do. Many here are going to tell me “Christ was originally a magi.” I’m willing to believe that, but it still doesn’t ease my discomfort. The reason why is because of all he’s used as a symbol. People assign symbolic value to images based on experiences. This is generally emotionally based.
I believe that for there to be balance, one third of the human population must walk an entirely different path than everyone else. One third must be artists. One third must be free thinkers. One third must live for themselves. One third must practice the arcane arts. One third must walk among outcasts. And what we get are people who can challenge society on its BS and force it to adapt to change. These people are free from the very same fetters that bind others.
Where as “Jesus” may have been one of such individuals, according to the stories, his name and image is usually not wielded to invoke free thinking or individualism. In fact, it’s used to preach the absolute opposite. I view Christ in the same way Christians view the Devil; as an entity trying to lead me off my spiritual path. The only difference is that I do not buy into the concept of spiritual righteousness. There’s no such thing at all. Spiritual freedom is an entirely different story, and that’s what his image is used against.
We’ve experienced those “Kindhearted” Christian types. They don’t use aggressive force. Instead I’d describe their manner as “Passively Aggressive.” They say things like “You don’t know what the future holds” or “Maybe you’ll change your mind.” They’ll try to reason with you or attempt to use nostalgia to convince you to believe, trying to appear “benevolent”. And if you argue, they make you look like the bad guy. Yahweh, I consider the more aggressive type. Jesus, I feel has that more passively aggressive energy and tries to be that good guy with your best interests at heart.
I also feel uncomfortable with the name, Satan, but not out of disdain. I don’t actually believe in a literal Satan, or an entity who’s independently named Satan. Satan to me is an amalgamation of different fiends of Abrahamic lore pulled into one being, solely meant to scare people. I have no problem with names like Samyaza, Belial, Lilith, or Lucifer. But, Satan just feels like an insult. It’s like calling someone with glasses “Four Eyes” or calling a gay person “Fagget”.
Like Jesus, Satan is a name and image invoked to further church and religious ideology. Satan is used by the church to symbolize all that is evil in the world; rape, murder, greed, so on and so forth. He is entwined with the word, Sin, which not only means evil deeds but also refers to evil energy. So to use the name Satan means to, by principle, admit to the Abrahamic god’s ideology of good and evil. Because other demonic names aren’t as prevalent, they’re safe to use.
Imagine you’re being called on to help someone and they refer to you by a name that was originally used to tease you with in the past. Would you help them at all? Invoking the name Satan is like addressing someone by an insulting nick name while asking for their help.
In that case, if I were you, I’d recognise it for what it is, and create your own view of Jesus/Christ in a way that soothes you.