Sorry to hear that Jaden. I figured you were the moment I started reading some of your views on this. I’d like to put before you a thought though. Lets take this scenario of the porn stars in the room that you are too afraid of offending to converse with because the idea that you might like them is harassment. What’s likely going to happen? Well, you will have successfully made yourself invisible for the perceived sensibilities of the mi’ladies in the room, and they will go on to live their lives, probably get hit on by some dude after work and end up draining his balls in a 3am booty call. I view your actions in this scenario akin to an unidentified fallen soldier who fought and died on the beaches of Normandy. Selfless, but forever barred from ever enjoying the fruits of his sacrifice…that others now will enjoy in his stead. You’re essentially paving the way for other men to pound the pussy that you are too concerned with offending, at the expense of yourself. My friend…why?
Here’s the thing Jaden. I don’t think your fears are totally unwarranted. It’s not simply your autism gaslighting you. To my knowledge, i don’t have autism, but even I have increasingly had these fears as of late. There are cultural changes at work…and in these transition periods, things are always messy as society tries to figure out what the new rules of the game are. But for you, the solution is the same as it is for me. Its called magick. How about in this scenario with you on your phone in a room full of pornstars, instead of your mind war gaming over which of your overtures may offend them more, these women were instead war gaming over how they should best break the ice with you, because in their minds (thanks to a potent glamor) they actually viewed you as the sexual specimen whom they were afraid of being rejected by or upsetting, and not the other way around?
The truth is that none of us are born with a perfect hand. Some of us are smart, but we were born in a five foot body that no one in the workplace takes seriously. Some of us are born beautiful and can command attention easily, but lack any financial literacy or work ethic…forever doomed to be at the service of someone else for survival. For you, you were handicapped with autism. An unfortunate thing to have in this context, as women place high value on social competence. However, i view this as a small price to pay for what this lifetime gave you in return. If I had the opportunity to be born again and I was told that I’d be handicapped with autism, but my life circumstances would lead me to have full access and knowledge of magick by the time I was in my 20’s, to do with as I see fit… I’d not only take the deal, but would insist that at least the next five incarnations of my spirit be placed in such a fortuitous situation. At the end of the day, the social consequences of autism are effortlessly overridden by the domineering force that is magick, and that of the infernal empire that resides within. In short, I guess my only concern here is the notable absence of magick from the conversations you have with yourself. Its an advantage too dominant to ignore.
Someone as good natured and experienced with magick as yourself, should never have these introspective conversations without asking the question, “What can magick do to solve this problem?”…so that the next time you have a dream like this…You wont be worried about how best to approach them, as they will be too worried about how best to approach you before you dip out of the room and leave their presence forever. Remember, magick can do amazing things in the area of seduction when given half the chance