Hello there
I want to share my story of unwanted demonic possession that has happened six years ago. Full description could fill a book, so I will focus only on main details.
Don’t mind my grammar, I am native Pole and I don’t know my English writing style yet.
Here is basic outline of my story:
I started my journey in (probably) the worst possible way so it was by not knowing what I am doing as a 19 years old teenager with poor childhood, with poor mindset, without any philosophical and spiritual preparation I stepped into spiritual scam known as “spiritual satanisms”. It was the great space designed to prey on defective folks like me. So my nineteenth years old mind felt like he was blessed by the fate and he thought it would be his path to godlike powers. Yeah, he was slightly wrong. So he did this shitty “dedication of soul” rite and unfortunately something happened. It was not the flow of power that he was expecting to have. It was the opposite of that. So what I did that day was that I allowed some hostile energy to enter my life. And from that day my life started to become more gloomy and darker. Illusion of spiritual satanism quickly faded away. Few month after that I got a vision of a dark demonic being fully covered in eyes. That being pierced my third chakra with a sword and went into myself. This is how I allowed for possession. From that time it get even worse, I started to get obsession, had a lot of intrusive thoughts, bad luck, personality inflations etc. How do I survive you may ask. So there is a bright side of the story. My crave for power was authentic and even with all my personality deficiencies of that time I was not weak-minded. The amount of pain that I was going through started my genuine spiritual awakening. This young man found that he is draconian mage.
And the real awakening process started.
In next five years my spiritual awareness evolved, I also developed some psychic powers. The cost of that was so high, the process involved a huge amount of pain and loneliness and it was deprived from most of it beauty. I am draconian, I never mind pain and lonely work but this definitely was not worth the price.
This being is extremely manipulative and hostile, it was preying on my energy for so long. I have to admit that this shit is a real evil genius but even after all his trials to destroy me I raised stronger every time.
I know every shade of pain, my life is a fucking graveyard. But, there is a beauty in darkness that gives life to the eternity of the soul, the light that cannot be extinguished. If you can transcend your experiences it is never a loss.
So few months ago I truly realized what was happening with my life, why I was living under permanently bad weather, why I was so unsuccessful with everything I do, why there was so much pain and losses.
I started working with this mostly in visions on energetic level.
My energy field started to cleans and I started to feel better on daily basis but this being is not willing to get out from my soul.
I will share my thoughts on how this being works and with what I am dealing now.
He is feeding on my low vibrant energy, he can drive me to a state of suicidal desires, feelings where I want my own death, where I am hopeless, where I am drained from life energy.
He is using some kind of black magic that I will call “dark mist”.
How does that mist works?
It clouds my senses and my psyche so that I cannot see my others aspects of soul.
With all my awakening, evolved consciousness, ability to work in energy field, analytical skills this mist can cloud it that I cannot see who I am.
It’s like i cannot believe that I am that person who have those aspects.
It’s so strange that is hard to describe, it’s like part of me know that I have those aspect and I can step into them but I can’t believe it and I don’t see this.
I am deprived from my psychic abilities and disconnects from my body and soul.
However this mist isn’t that strong, it could be overcame with willpower, rage, draconian fire or pure golden light.
The latter works the best, few seconds of visualization and this kind of darkness fade away.
For now he cannot cloud me with that mist anymore, neither he can’t get me down to low vibrant states of mind.
There is also other kind of magic that I don’t know how to deal with.
So possession have happened in my 19’ and this part of my soul is trapped in other dimension or freezed in time.
In every dream I feel like I am 19 years old, without awareness of my spiritual awakening, without awareness of what is happening.
My dreams are related to my 19’ lifetime, with old friends, old environment, old way of thinking and feeling.
There are dreams that are so detached from my mundane life and dreams that my energy work involved but always in my 19’ mind.
Same goes to astral projection work with oobe, I am always inflated to my 19 years old self that is not conscious about her spiritual awakening that happened in next years.
Even if I got conscious in dream I never remember who I truly am and what power I have in myself.
Up to this day I don’t really know how to deal with that, I am trying autohypnosis to get conscious in dream with my mundane awareness but it’s not that easy, I have no control there yet.
Other manifestation of this being is squeeze in third chakra and tingle in first chakra.
The squeeze is most noticeable in moments of cleansing whatever it will be a fire, water, air, draconian fire, pure golden light or candle meditation.
This squeeze also have place while I am visualizing my souls light it is having a passionate relationship, running business that I want, have influence over environment that I want to operate in, etc. Everything that is connected with my purpose in life, this being hates it.
I would say he is a coward and only by preying on my weaknesses and by manipulating in my energy field he was able to stay here for so long.
His time is getting over and my soul is going to win and liberate itself.
Just need to know how can I do this.
The biggest problem with cleansing is that my body shakes, I can ever scream.
It’s so hard to channel that much of energy and withstand trembling of my body without losing focus.
Same goes with self exorcism, whatever the intention will be: I exorcise/banish or get the fuck out from my soul, it causes a lot of body pain and huge amount of resistance.
I tried to burn this shit in draconian fire on my full rage mode with invocation of the Dragon and I almost vomited.
Pure golden light works better, it does not cost that amount of pain and this being is afraid of that.
The biggest problem is that I cannot handle to be a vessel for my pure golden light while at the same time my body trembles and I feel a great resistance.
I tried to cut energetic bonds but dream showed me that I cannot do this that time.
I know that my energy works bring results, I feel better on daily basis, squeeze in 3rd chakra and resistance decreases, the quality of dreams is improving.
This being is losing, his influence over my life is getting lower and I am closer to liberate myself from his shackles.
Wonder if you have some reflections or advices that could bring me some inspirations about work that I am doing now.
Cheers
