Hello friends,
I’m new here, so please if be patient with me as I figure out how to navigate involving others in my practice.
I’ve recently felt connected to His Grace, Vual. I’ve never worked with him before but felt I needed assistance and mostly guidance and emotional protection from some hard people in my life. I’ve felt so distracted from my work. I’m a writer.
I’m also an extremely organized person and my room was a mess so it was causing so much anxiety. I pulled a tarot card and got the three of wands and the three of cups and it was like he was calling me.
Anyways, long story short…I asked for his guidance and protection, his mentorship. Then I went to work lol. I bartend part-time, and I am a professional tarot reader, I came home from both jobs exhausted - got in an old teeshirt and crawled into my messy bed, and fell asleep. I totally forgot to brush my teeth (gross I know). ANY WAY. Don’t judge me.
That night while I was asleep I felt someone hold me from behind and whispered in my ear- he said -
Tomorrow night, you will come to bed dressed appropriately for me. Brush your teeth and get control of his mess. I saw his face, I felt his touch… THAT HAS NEVER happened.
I couldn’t stop thinking about him all day the next day…it was crazy.
I came home and meditated. I had an amazing reading.
I offered The Duke a new journal before bed and meditated with him.
That night, he touched me…everywhere and I begged him to have sex with me, but I was half asleep half awake…he was on top and started to… but then he stopped… it was like stopped himself…then last night I could only feel him around me, I felt him hold me for a moment, but nothing.
I’ll be honest, I’m scared but I feel strangely wanted by him. I know I’m not special but…if you can help in any way please do. Theres some graphic moments I’m happy to share in private but…yeah this is so bizarre and lovely I just want to know I’m not insane for wanting more.
