I’ve done a lot of research, and I’ve practiced a lot and I have come to one conclusion while trying to get into the theta/gamma sync/ rapture, that I’m horribly awful at it. I figured I’d start out by saying I use a white candle and stare into the flame while doing autogenic exercises to relax my body. My mind seems clear and everything around the candle starts going really dark, but I NEVER feel like I’m losing equilibrium, or the floor has slipped out from underneath me, or that I am spinning. I having been doing this for a little over 6 months and It’s really been pissing me off because I’m not making any progress, I’ve read a lot of forums on here and I’m thinking getting a consultation is my only answer, although I would hate to spend that amount of money so this is my last resort. Any advice, and am I in the TGS and if I am how do I enter the rapture, would you kindly help out a beginner and leave some insight or advice?
P.S. I’ve tried the blue ray meditation and it doesn’t help too much, so any advice but that would be great.
Edit: I’d also like to point out to anyone else reading that I did this before as a child not knowing what TGS, Rapture, or Crossroads were, and after a demon visiting me in my sleep, I woke up in this state with an inability to hold the state. I know exactly what it feels like, so I would know if I felt it, I just can’t get there for some reason.