So with all the things that’s gone down in my life within the past few months I’ve lost alot of will to do well…anything.Especially spiritual or ritual work.I barely even meditate.I’m in quite a rut in the physical and spiritual aspect of things.I can’t quiet my mind enough to even sit through reading much anymore.
I’ve thought about the idea of calling King Paimon to basically manipulate my mind in a positive way but I think I’ve had enough of the darker forces for awhile.
I’ve been reading Rofus Opus’ A Modern Angelic Grimoire and have been thinking about pathworking through it because I honestly feel like I need like lighter more gentle forces in my life right now.
My main concern is the fact that I’m a father.And when my daughter returns home I don’t want her to return to the chaos of any entity teaching me a hard lesson.
But once again the lack of will stands in my way.
Anybody ever get in one of these ruts before?
What helped you out?