I was a member on this forum years ago under the name MustaKrackish. I dropped my practices for quite some time due to some turbulence in my life but I have recently gotten back in to Magick now that my life is more stable and my mind is right. Glad to be here and have and share many new experiences with you all!
I’m curious why magick wasn’t one of your chosen tools for restoring stability. I think we use magick whether we intend to or not, so choosing to abandon it puts it back into the hands of your subconscious, which includes parts that work against us.
I’m very familiar with the “parts of the subconscious that work against us”. And doing magic, by itself doesn’t always automatically make them go away.