I do therapy first. Mammon and Lilith help me when I have anxiety. Mammon helps me make critical decisions when I can’t think straight, Lilith listens and helps guide me out of the anxiety - then she helps find the roots causing the anxiety!
I think once the deities see you are helping yourself, they will be sympathetic.
Ever since I was a little kid I was afraid of people/had terrible social anxiety. Deities have helped me assert myself, and work through possible anxiety backlash after.
Anubis and Set really helped me recover from cognitive dissonance, and left brain dysfunction and the development of instinctual intelligence
Agreed.
A lot of entities, witihin and around me
tend to treat me in the manner that i treat myself.
If i let my guard down and my mind wander, they will just barge in without any care or consideration.
If i set boundaries, they will respect me.
If i deny myself, then they will wait until snap out of that bs.
If i express gratitude towards them, and acknowledge their existence and presence, they in turn will care to take a look at me, and perhaps aid me -as long as im not actively selfsabotaging myself, which would frustrate them.
In general, i would say that mental illness is not really a thing,
just that people have…
A: abilities that are not properly trained or accepted by society
B: internal issues that manifest/attract bs, but (like in point A) a abrahamic based materialist society does not support such a person.
C: both above points apply
Sometimes my mind wanders, and if i see (here a silly-) for example, a piece of chocolate in the shape of a ladybug, and even for the briefest of moments consider it alive/sentient, i suddenly perceive a pre-existent spirit OR have created one, a entity residing in the chocolate.
Maybe i am loosing it, for seeing portals in sinks and tiny cities hanging from my ceiling
-but there is plenty of wisdom in this “madness”, and its better be open for all sorts of options,
rather than seeing less than there actually are.
Also, i have been into this “world” for years now.
example:
-yesterday a dentist appointment was scheduled, but i expected that i would not make it, since i would be working at that time, and had already accepted it
-at work i was given some instructions, legal paperwork (telling me by how many K i would be fined if i messed up) and the tasks themselves +being monitored doing them
-combined this with 2 energy drinks and i ended up having a panick attack.
-depsite me calming down and sort of doing well afterwards, i was send home early (not fired)
and through that i ended up being able to go to the dentist after all.
-afterwards i felt this need to purify and improve myself, which send me down some rabbit holes
a progression which in retrospec seems very much orchestrated.
You might thinkg “well that is just coincidence” …yeah, only that these patterns have been going on
for years now. Also, the night before i went to work -i chanted my sigil-mantras, and the spirits told me that “these changes will echo into your life” -not giving me any hint at what they meant.
At some point, just as Koetting once said in that “buried king Zazazel” video
“at some point ‘coincidence’ is just impossible” (paraphrased)
There are entities within and outside of me, but there is plenty of overlap between those.
Sometimes i dont know if im possessed or just happen to be embodying a certain aspect of mine.
Most of the time, its better to not overthink it.
This resonates with me on such a deep level. I’m currently very interested in investigating the link between ‘mental illness’ (specifically illnesses that include hallucinations) and shamanism. If you have any recommended reading/resources on the subject I’d appreciate some guidance.