Greetings from UK, London! Originally from the land with a lot of history both paganic/christian - Poland.
I found this forum after watching Hereditary, being a little spooked by that last scene I looked if the deity - King Paimon, was somewhere in the books and it turned out people had contacted him and there’s been articles written about him. I was like wtf and kept reading, then watched some of the E.A. koettings videos and here I am, again brought up into the occult.
I’m new to all of this. Brought up in a Christian family, not very spiritual, I’ve been always drawn to the unknown but since I wasn’t the bravest I never did anything about it.
Since I remember I had this fear of darkness. It would come up stronger, lighter depending on the situation, it’s something I deal with to this day and trying to overcome it. Recently reading this forum and books about demonic entities in a middle of the night surprised me greatly, i think I was too focused to realise haha. I reckon it has to do a lot with a huge imagination and good visualisation I had all through my childhood and teenage years ( watching Chucky and Freddy at 5 didn’t help ) , that is I hope will help me with my energy work and future magick.
Excited about the path of self discovery but unfortunately I have to go through a lot of programming that’s been brought onto myself by myself and my environment.
I work quite a lot so I fear my practice can be affected by it by let’s do it one day at the time.
I was wondering, can demons, angels, gods help you with discovering your path and finding your purpose in this life? I’ve had couple of projects and ideas, some of them failed - maybe for a reason, some of them has been started but not continued and right now I’m kinda stucked in one place regarding my career life. That’s one of the main things I’d like to solve, pretty much everything else consists of learning the practice of magick and I read spirits can help with that.
Currently I’m reading this forum extensively and some of the work by Michael W Ford, John Kreiter, Damon Brand and Robert Bruce regarding basic knowledge.
I forgot to add that I have no idea what magic resonates with me. I feel drawn to try and see if getting to know Lucifer would help me, also try to see Raphael healing and regeneration aspects. I really don’t have a clue, it baffles me that I still think that working with demons will open me up unnecessarily to other beings that might want to fuck with me hence learning how to help myself in case.
Thanks to those who keep this forum going and many thanks to the creators of articles for new practicioners!