Oh well, here I go.
So, I’ve been on a spiritual journey for quite a while. Mostly a lot of contemplation has been my tool for getting a better understanding of what I feel that I should do and what to avoid and so forth. I love conversations but I never seem to find people to talk about the matters I care about most. Small talk tends to bore me :P.
What sparked my interest in spirituality, as I claimed to be an atheist before, was a mystical yogi type teacher on YouTube called Sadhguru. He just seemed to be so intelligent, yet at the same time simple. And he talked about sth I couldn’t understand or compherhend, something to reach for. Wow I thought, this is really curious and kept exploring. Then at some point I dwelled very deeply into non duality stuff, and eventually realized that hey that’s a pretty simple concept thought about in a million different ways. But nothing in my life changed. I started becoming more and more honest with myself, realized that I would like a purpose and so I started working on that. Eventually I changed things around and realized I need to do a lot of work on myself. I became honest about how much I wanna make art. And like it in general. I thought for a while that art could be a portal for enlightenment, but somehow the non-duality ideas you could say found a way to discourage me and make me feel like it would be a distraction. But needless to say. I don’t care much anymore. Now I’m just curious about getting a deeper feeling, awareness and understanding of “the other”, work with and understand spirits, make art, be successful and just find a happiness I’ve struggled with for so long, as well as face my shadows and just do whatever it takes.
Also I’ve felt quite identified with being a starseed, and an older soul in general. Perhaps to help heal planet earth and help ascend.
To whomever read this, thank you for taking the time and maybe ill be on here writing about my explorations, been thinking about getting into astral travel and out of body experiences a lot recently. Oh and I just started a “book of shadows” :ooo