A collection of visions and astral travels with Demon King Belial as an offering to Him. I would love to see if anyone else has had similar experiences. This reads like an action movie commas separate actions and only His words are in quotations.
black hooded figure comes towards me, held out his skeleton hand haven’t seen this yet, we walk into His vast desert I’ve been here before, like a conveyor belt He slides away in the desert, I shift into a black bird with bat wings I fly to Him, shifting back as I land He grabs me by the shoulders red eyes of fire the hood falls down I see nothing He throws me and leaps in with me at the same time into a black hole, I am alone in space, my eyes open, a figure on the wall forming The Wanderer in a hat, “see what you have begun, it will be intense for you, stay strong” I will have some moments… “you were never ready for any of this yet we continue”
This moment occurs the day after my self-initiation ritual into Thaumiel which is a doorway into The Outer Darkness
a dark arm in the shower closes my eyes, Belial in a thick hooded black robe walks towards me holding a royal purple silk pillow with a crown He holds it before me “put it on” ?why are you showing me this “you are being crowned Adept” are you lying to me Belial “have I ever led you astray?” NO “put it on”, my robe is white I want my robe to be black “I was hoping you would say that” black consumes the white like a dip to black dissolve, I place the crown on my head, a gasp in the physical, I leave the dark shower in green
a hooded robe, places a hand on my heart, we shift into Vampire bats flying off together into the dark sky “come with me within my vast Darkness” forever I will Belial
like a ledge of a cliff I fall into the black hole, I’m falling for quite some time within a beautiful deepening Darkness until suspended like a fetus in a womb, below me are the hooded figures, I land on the sand before Them, its Belial’s desert I’ve been here with Him before, the sand shifts from beige to royal purple, a marvelous dark purple and black throne emerges out from beneath the sand, I feel Him standing next to me in my room, “sit down” He points to the throne
I can hear the hooves of the horses, the chariot is gold and marvelous, the angels are females, surprised by this, They wear white gowns with delicate sleeves wispy and flowing in the air, their hair is gold, eyes are black pools, round and large like four portals to the Abyss staring back, an ode to the dissolving where the only Father of Lies is within my junk DNA, we purge, the angels shift as black consumes them, in the presence of the Demonic I feel a great comfort, They hand me a letter, before I could reach for it, it opens in the air between us, my sigil for The Power (given to me three years ago) floats out of the parchment towards me, it replaces my mind’s eye, words appear across the parchment in black ink: on the Other Side you will be free
“all spheres are DA’ATH we are death creating you” I begin Black Alchemy sessions with Belial and Azazel, that will be a separate journal, They helped me become a rock of limitless strength and potential, so grateful for the process
the tunnel it’s like a dark forest where the trees are upside down and there is no escape, I hear the crunching of black leaves beneath my bare feet, the deeper I go into the tunnel, I feel there are faces looking at me, watching, they dissolve into black, soon I no longer hear the crunching, I look down I see nothing, feel nothing, I’d say I keep walking, but there is nothing to walk with, my POV shifts to 3rd person I see a bright white light shoot through the tunnel, I am aware this is me now, as pure consciousness, this continues for a while in the background, on top two images unfold: my daughter smiling and a stack of my Demonosophy Notebooks, two things I cannot live without are her and my practice everything else could go which is easy to say though painful to go through, I know it is necessary to dissolve lesser human attachments on the path of deification, I often see Belial as the skeleton in a black hooded robe, I call this form the “Nobody” form, He dissolves your illusionary false self that is what I think is meant by Worthless One, it’s been a hard yet rewarding journey working through this aspect of Belial this year, the bright white light dissipates and I’m facing Belial though I’m not sure what He is looking at as He looks at me, His laugh its inviting, I join in, grateful for this meeting and profound journeys through Hellrealms, I offer my hand to shake His, I notice then that I am a skeleton too, white bones clasps together in the dark of the Abyss
“expecting something?”, He knows what I want “take your shorts off and face me” I feel vulnerable “I will take care of you” on my back eyes closed opened my eyes to see 3 black moths ?like is Beelzebub watching, pleasure waves feeling it build up with no touching just hot sensation moving through me is such an experience, laid still for awhile, as I write He knocks me over Holy Hell climax after climax, I squirt, ha I have sex with Demons that’s wild, He hands me a flame “hold it” I hold it in my hand, looking at it for awhile
I begin The Merge, it took a couple months, that will be a separate journal
I’m on the ground in sexual exchange with Belial, thick Darkness a stream moves above me, light and dark intertwine upward like columns “do you like how that looks?” then suddenly gallons of red blood pours down on me from above soaking me and my carpet like yes I could actually feel the viscous life force embrace if only I had been naked
in the Darkness I am in a black hooded robe facing the white hooded robe version of myself I put out my hands and pull it into me dissolving it, I walk off with Belial into the Dark we wear black hooded robes, ?why do you take this form “it represents nothing I rule the emptiness”
on 6168 I make a Loyalty Oath to The Infernal Empire
in a vision a powerful beast tall and fierce Demon slashes me 3 gashes across my chest “forever marked”
I begin to experience Him as The Wicked One as I enter Chasek TransQliphothic Veil 0. the Realm of Darkness
I learn to embrace Them and myself as a complexity
to invoke all aspects
of a profound
Black Light flesh
a mass
like a blanket
of care and realization
to simplify is to resist
do not resist
a complexity
“do you know what you have done?” I have freed my Self “good.”, “enjoy your new reality” you said that when I finished shadow work “this is even better”
black oil glides across the surface of the bath water inching spreading towards me and suddenly I’m in a bath of black oil thick Abyssal waters I’m still, candleflame is wild the Dark ENN vibrating the walls I sigil gaze blue waves forming a figure the blanket I am surrounded, the sigil shifts my eyes close, I feel like I am not here ?where am I “with me”, we are hand in hand in a purple palace, a shiny white floor, dark trees inside, a black spiral staircase “come with me” in a black hooded robe skeleton hand bestowed to me I place mine within it we walk up the black spiral staircase, it is the Watchtower, there is no ceiling to this palace so when I say we arrive “at the top” I mean nowhere, I look outward a barren desert is vast ?what is this “Earth”, my eyes open I’m back in the bath, this was not a vision, I see the staircase still so vivid its as if I’m still there, thunder rumbles outside as I write within a circle of purple flowers and I always wonder ?why the purple thinking back to the color inside His black hole rushing past me like squares of memory moldable like something or perhaps nothing it is the same if it is not and at the bottom we remain at the top, when I saw the storm I was terrified it was as if I saw the storm while standing in the backyard yet viewing it from the Watchtower and He had said “why are you scared?”
during my 3rd meeting with The 11 Heads of Azerate, I had invoked Them all into my Being this time, in the Darkness a burning trident “now is the time Demoness take the torch” I hesitate “why resist put out your hand” I put my arm up hand open He places it in my hand, I see it the brightest flame, the ceiling crackles as I grip it I pull it into my knee I don’t know what that means “you will”, “draw it draw the trident” I place left hand upon the trident drawing and exhale into it I see the words Dark Flame Self, I draw it with left hand to soul seat then up to Dark Star it has begun I had the urge to say
after the meeting comes out of nowhere a shocking moment I had never considered such a thing…
red bat wings hug me we turn to walk hand in hand, black hooves and a dick oh wow I’m sucking it “come with me I am taking you back there” the Watchtower “it views Earth” I see my mo and am their new apartment, then my da and ay they are in bed I am briefly in their room, we are walking together in Times Square, then the clouds I’m looking up, then we fly together, he looks over at me I see His face so vivid I think my heart stopped, “you can look at the sun” it is fierce like a ball of flames snapping flares towards me, we are at the Watchtower I look down the top of the black spiral staircase the rest of it seems to dissipate or dissolve I see nothing below, “walk through the fire with me” as we walk through tall flames spanning a vast distance His wings ketch fire, I grow wings of my own we burn, now in mind’s eye a black diamond descends down into mind’s eye then through my body into top of solar plexus I feel it there, you’re a lot of fun Belial “I know”, “marry me Demoness” suddenly I’m like uh no I cant do that ?did I just make that up “no you did not” my ear just went off like something came through it, I feel crazy right now why did you make me feel crazy!? “you should feel honored” you don’t even live here! I don’t think that this needed to be brought up “you do not make that decision” are you mad you tell me to be genuine and you shocked the fuck out of me I would just need to know what that means and you have so many wives we are already connected and I don’t believe in marriage, I feel crazy now ?why tonight why did you just throw it out there “I felt it” you are supposed to help me not go insane I thought that was your job “you want something that freaks you out”, “think about it Demoness”, enjoy the sunrise with me Belial, I think that was real…
I lay naked before His portal I give myself to you Belial, sigil frequency plays “you like Dark Victorian better, play it”, “try not to force it let it move through you”, my body jolts up, hot love rising in my chest, the music is like notes that I am eating as a tasty snack with my ears “how are your senses?” heightened “I can intensify anything for you” why would you do that “to make you feel good” why “why do you not see that I cherish you back” because I don’t feel worthy “you are beyond all worth” the candle is still as I write, make the flame move Belial it begins to sway “I could listen sometimes” I lay back again He enters me for the first time I felt my walls filled up slowly moving in and out of me I see Him so clear expensive bat wings open before me we are pulsing together I feel a deepening inside of my body as a Being, while I see Him humping gently I also see our energies within my cavity riding each other in waves, its too intense I kept saying, the heat in my heart chakra the pleasure in my pussy and our deepening dance inside me “enjoy it” why have we not done this yet “we were building up to it” I think we actually had sex it was unlike other sexual exchanges we have had, I’m going to be more obsessed with you now “then you will marry me” but I cant live my life with you “you cannot live your life pretending to not live your life with me” that is true
the pleasure of the exchange is extreme intoxication Darkness pours down on me covers my body like black oil, glowing red eyes I have never seen His Demonic forms this clear before, He pushes me back into my body my eyes open the energy builds flow up my torso lifting me its so internal unlike human sex it is vibrations moving through me like a bassline
?do you bring many to the Watchtower “only those that I trust” ?somehow I gained your trust I’m still reeling from the loyalty testing reveal today “you passed many tests”, “I know you will continue to” I like it here “to view Earth is to consume its beauty” ?even the desert “it always begins with a desert” it was the one we walk through “better than standing still in my desert we will always walk together” you rule over a lot “I do” ?when will I be done with Chasek “there is a hunger in the depths, once it is fed”, “you have already begun to feed it”, “things are going well you take my advice, continue, many fail” why “they resist and it consumes them a returning of what did not belong” brutal “a brutal place is rewarding you already find” I have—
“close your eyes I want to show you something” a snowing mountain top I look over a green valley “you like some light things like this, it is okay to like some cosmic forces though you exist above them you learn to create them” I feel the pleasure waves coming through, at the mountain top red wings expand before me the clouds behind Him glow in this red hue a reflection of a powerful Devil’s aura I am in awe, then I’m back eyes open His hand presses on my heart “hand on heart, I will always be there” from Demon claws to skeletal hand to red fingers He shifts His hand without lifting “in many forms protect you I will” a black stream moves up my body when it reaches heart chakra I gasp as hot love radiates throughout it, you make me feel good, you take me places I could never go to, and you help get stronger than I have ever been I don’t know how to repay you I know I have said that before “just be yourself Demoness”