Introductions first, I’ve always been fascinated of what lies beyond, if there is more to the world. Spirits Demons, Angels I respect them, but fear them as well, it is part of my nature.
This year I started getting into theistic Statism properly, wishing to learn more and not follow my younger selfs slandering footsteps. It is difficult to find a real source with false information swimming around everywhere. The first hurdle was being completely honest to myself which is a difficult task if of deceiving, manipulative nature, but with time I managed.
My goal is to reach a certain level of power that protects me from harm others may inflict, perhaps return the favor of emotional turmoil and stress someone caused me, most importantly I want to built a connection with demons and spirits.
Where do I start, there is so many ways I simply loose track - another question of mine would be, is there a way to atone (very Christian word I’m aware) for ones mistakes of lying and slander that might have been harmful to the beings I’m trying to connect with? My younger creative attention seeking self said things I wish to apologize for.