This sounds like a multifaceted issue that might be a journey in itself to get through. I would start by breaking it down to separate areas and at the same time, look for external influences like parasites, ancestral issues/curses and environmental energetics that could be negatively affecting you.
If you feel comfortable, can you elaborate on how this happens with an example? What does “push me away” mean? Do he people you interact with just annoy the crap out of you or are you being attacked, that sort of thing?
How does this fuckery manifest? What thoughts do you get and what are you reading?
This one is more open to possible parasite influence, where something is leveraging the old issues to get you riles up so it can eat that energy.
What spiritual hygiene practices do you have in your toolbox to clear and balance your energy and get rid of unwanted influences?
Um, maybe the "the world is messy and you need good waterproof boots" level 
This doesn’t happen to everyone.
Find out the why and the how, and you can fix the underlying causes. This is probably going to take some dee shadow work and take a while, but it will be worth it.