My situation is a bit unique because I cursed the mf who currently lives with me. I have cast curses on him a couple of months ago, and while I didn’t notice many tangible changes, I did feel a huge relief after performing them (as I usually do every time I perform curses on people).
This time has been a little bit different. This time, I performed two curses from 29 deadly sigils by Sorcoress Cagliastro because I felt I needed something stronger. Since then, I’ve been feeling quite awful (not from guilt). I keep having these flashes of rage everytime I think about what he did to me, and they end up consuming me like intrusive thoughts.
I think this is happening because I currently live with him. It’s so hard for me to not think about him. I keep seeing him every single day, looking no different at all. It pains me everytime I see this. He really deserves to suffer.
It’s only been about one week since I did these curses. Usually I’m very good at moving on and not lusting for results. But this time feels different. I’ve never had this kind of pain after casting a curse before.
Any advice? I did a mirror ritual to send this energy back to the sender, and I felt a little better. I also visualised true white all over my room since I can’t use sage indoors. I’m also intending that this negative energy will not affect the efficacy of my curses at all.
Maybe I’m just being emotional, but I was actually considering just turning to Christianity and giving this pain all to “God” just to make it stop.
Your curse bounced off his defences so you’re getting the blowback now
Your curse was effective but this baneful energy hangs around the guy and sticks back to you since it’s your energy in the first place and “like attracts like” and you seem to still be in a pretty baneful mood, you’re probably pulling it back towards yourself
From what I gather baneful workings tend to attract baneful energies to the people performing such workings. If you want these to let go off you, you should start working towards improving your internal states to more calm, happy, etc. as well as improve your defences. The few things you mentioned, like cleansing with white light are a move in the right direction - you should probably double down on these.
Additionally, if you purport to have spikes of rage that are outside of your control, these could be your shadow or parasites, perhaps both.
Shadow work, banishing and cleansing, perhaps psychotherapy should be on your mind now if you feel desperate enough to be considering changing your religion to free yourself of it.
Thank you so much! A lot has transpired since I last made this post. Things between us got even worse, and now I am in the process of breaking the lease and moving to a different city. I know this baneful energy is affecting him too, so I don’t think it bounced off protections thankfully. I think what you said about “like attracts like” is so true and probably why I have been feeling so awful. Tonight I’m going to do the death curse by EA Koetting, it’s the one where you create an effigy of the person and beat/spit/stab it until you have no more energy left. I have done it before, and while I’m not sure if the ritual had done anything tangible, I did feel a massive psychological relief afterwards.
I am attributing all this dark energy (including me needing to move) all to THE BOY (the demon in the book I used). This is crazy dark energy and I am surprised at not only how potent it is, but how QUICKLY it manifested. It’s beautiful and I’m excited to see what happens next.
He might just have traumatized you, in a minor or more major way. And now you are being triggered. Do shadow work instead of casting curses. This will resolve your inner conflict, create space for healing and change your whole perspective on the situation. Don’t underestimate the power of simple psychology.
I’ve experienced this and its variations many times. There could be many reasons, but personally, I always experienced it for the same reason.
Not just with curses, but I experienced the same thing with love spells and similar workings.
If you think about your target too much, if you’ve turned it into an obsession, then your biggest connection to them is no longer the real them in the world—it becomes the version of them that lives inside your head.
So the spells you cast on them end up mostly being spells you cast on yourself. And since, due to harmony, spells cast on yourself are much more effective, you can find yourself crawling on the ground.
I don’t know the working you mentioned, but it seems like you’re the one “sending” the energy. You might have encountered such a situation.
That aside, if you stay too long in the environment where you performed the spell and don’t properly cleanse it, you can also experience similar effects.
Another reason—though not everyone might agree with this—is that if you’re close to the Abrahamic faiths and you resort to opposite paths like demons, your Abrahamic connections can also harm you. It’s a kind of control mechanism. It doesn’t necessarily require working with angels specifically—regular Abrahamic worship is often enough for this. I’ve also seen many variations of it.