There are so many topics in my mind right now. Forgive me. This is going to be a cluster fuck of a post. I have 20 tabs open in my head.
First, I’m new to evocation. My proficiency is with personal sigils and a few other random bits. I have studied. I’ve just been armchair for years. I feel much better after my experience evoking Raphael.
A. I never messed with daemonic evocation or considered it because I have lots of animals and my elderly father in my house that I care for. I was too paranoid of them being affected. I feel much better after reading everyone’s experiences here.
B. The information about the daemons being prior deities in old cultures incredibly resonates with me although I haven’t studied it deeper. I have a good old friend that I swear, I have so much respect for, and I wonder if he’s playing devil’s advocate with me, however…
He actually told me that treating daemons respectfully and evoking without all the props and protection is new age fluff bunny stuff. He invokes the thwarting angel first before evoking or otherwise working with the goetic entity, with the full Solomonic glam and glitz. He claims that working with Goetics actually burns your energy or astral body, and the only way to heal it is through divine intervention. I’ve never seen mention of the thwarting angels anywhere else until he brought it up. Now, some of my other close friends have been working with Goetics for years. They are incredibly healthy, of sound mind, and their bodies in phenomenal shape. I’m sure results vary, but most people here I’ve observed are very down to earth and level headed. It doesn’t quite add up. And I’m going to figure it out via direct experience, I just was wondering about general opinions on all that.
C. I’m pretty sure some entity has tried to reach out here and there in my past. Maybe. I try to stay skeptical of myself always and keep one foot firmly planted in reality. So maybe.
1st time- I very randomly heard a deep growly voice say my name very clear in my mind. It sounded outside my mind honestly. I was meditating and snapped my eyes open. That was probably ten years ago before my studies.
2nd- lucid dream I believe. The landscape was grey and airy with cloudy thin substance spread out. A robed monster thing was across the way where I was walking. It had a staff and it looked almost like it was made out of black straw. I paused, not sure what it was or if it was friendly. It motioned at me to come over, very casually with it’s hand like an old friend. At that moment memories hit me like visions, of being very very young, like one or two, and this thing playing with me and teaching me things. It was like a second dad. I bursted I to a sprint to run and give it a hug and mid-stride I felt my lucid dream state waking me up. Tried to fight it but I woke up… pissed… and still feeling every bit of emotion from the memories. I’d like to know what that was. That was probably 5 years ago.
3rd- A few years ago, lucid dream, I was standing in my dad’s room talking to him, and for some reason he picked up a camera to take a picture of me. When the camera flashed, in the dream I got very dizzy and sleepy. I felt the dreamscape fading and a sucking feeling starting to occur. I know that feeling. And as it intensified as I got dizzier, I heard that voice again, low and growly, muttering sentences that sounded like they were in Latin. I spooked like a little bitch and fought it and willed myself awake in a blink.
So, Azazel has been on my mind lately. My goals are mainly growth. Growth growth and all the learning I can stand. Secondary goals are, help with astral projection skills, and fun experiences. Did I mention I love fucked up experiences? xD Also secondary…
I really as a side note want help with my boyfriend. He is amazing and so amazing in bed… but he’s holding himself back, has been for three years now. I need him to stop relressing his kink and stop being shy and go all kinds of fucking wild.
So, what I did, since I’m not sure which daemon resonates with me or how to discover if any do or I have any past life connection or anything like that…
I drew a few sigils: Lucifer, Sitri, Azazel, Paimon, and Asmodeus. As I’ve mentioned before I’ve always been very very tactile. So I made individual squares like tarot cards, shuffled them with my eyes closed, got in a trance state, and felt them out. I separated them based on how they felt.
To my great surprise, Sitri was cold as ice. Paimon was very slightly warm. Azazel was slightly warmer. Asmodeus began icey, then slowly became hot. I got a good feeling from his sigil. Lucifer was a nice solid warmth.
This isn’t definitive/concrete for me.
I was really pretty set on evoking Azazel for my first daemon, but it may be Asmodeus or Lucifer.
All opinions welcome.