To whoever happens to read this thread I want to thank you in advance for sharing your advice and experience. Here are my worries and questions:
I come from a strict fundamentalist Judeo/Christian background. I got “saved”, Baptised and attended church regularly. I was told that the devil is real, alive and out there to get you. I was always confused and skeptical of the Church. Recently certain events in my life gave me that final push to question what I was comfortable and familiar with.
I began researching Satanism and the opposing view to everything I have been fed. What I found completely changed my view of the Bible and what I thought was true.
I decided to dig deeper and somehow managed to land on the BALG website. I was intrigued so I purchased the Evocation course. I found it fascinating and exciting. The idea of having power for myself and not having to beg some God who is far away and indifferent really appealed to me.
I am at a point where I have prepared all the necessary tools and equipments for the evocation but I am experiencing serious guilt and doubt about the whole ritual. Due to my Christian programming I am fearful of burning in an eternal lake of fire forever and ever if I was to make an attempt at conjuring a spirit. I am also worried about summoning demons since the common Christian belief is that they are fallen angels and will only deceive and harm you.
Has anyone had a similar experience? How did you overcome the fear and the doubts? Thank you for sharing.