Hello! 
I’m going to make an official ongoing journal for myself after realizing I’ve been struggling a lot with meditation. And keeping up energy to just really live daily life. And I guess I’ll write on other things as they arise. (Feel free to read if you’d like and I appreciate input or even lurkers. I don’t mind either way!)
So, I’ve went down a rabbit hole of learning different ways to meditate and this is the most basic of things we all have to learn. Yet when I try I always come to face obstacles. By far this video (linked below) has gave me quite the experience tonight. But I do have to say I love that man’s voice. Lol
So at first before I could get to the chakra part of the video I realized I could not do the traditional breathe through your nose and out your mouth technique. Okay, let me try my inhaler (asthma) beforehand and see if that’ll help. I waited and then played the video again… it was still difficult. I think my small mouth has to do with it too as my upper jaw puts pressure on my airways by default as well. So I researched a bit on the forum and some members just use their nose to breathe. Awesome because that’s what I prefer. So there I go, trying again. And I successfully get to the root chakra part to balance; heal; or cleanse.
Commence the part where everything I am scared of flows through my mind as the speaker instructs me to acknowledge it all. (I have a lot…lol) I shed some tears, oh no. I am instructed to inhale and then let the fear or worry go (exhale). COMMENCE THROAT TIGHTENING. Oh well I need to push through it right? Lets add this fear of suffocating from anxiety too to the list to “let go” 
After a few moments I notice I cannot get a decent breath and even though it’s against how many times I can take a puff of this inhaler (within 4 hours) I do so and turn the video off. I decide to sit there for a moment and drink a sip of water to try and call down. Swallowing the water made my throat hurt so I know my throat must have gotten narrow. Now I’m off to take a bath to try and calm down. I feel like my root chakra is most certainly blocked judging from this experience and probably kills the connection to the other 6 chakras and maybe is halting my spiritual development. I guess there is always tomorrow but sheesh. Getting my chakras cleansed and balance is going to be a feat!
Damn root chakra. 
So, there I was “sleeping,” within a dream. I felt this heavy thing crawl on top of me and (content warning) 
proceed to do sexual acts on me. It felt so real that I was panicking. And I couldn’t do anything as it paralyzed me in the dream. I could barely open my eyes but I could see it was not my husband. It just took control of everything, almost like how sleep paralysis feels but I’m in a dream. I started to become extremely upset and on verge of tears but then I guess it allowed me to see clearly and I found whatever it originally was did change INTO my husband. And then I was thinking “oh, hes home early.” So it started to become enjoyable and I wasn’t scared anymore.