So I attempted to contact Beleth on multiple occasions and the results have been…mixed.
My first attempt happened spontaneously out of sheer desperation (I was a total magick noob, I made peace with that), I just drew her sigil, made a supplication with surprising composure despite my emotional turmoil, pricked my ring-finger with a needle and smeared my blood on the paper. I must add I had also drawn Sallos’ sigil on the same sheet and called on him too, but Beleth was my main objective and Sallos just slid out of my mind.
It felt strange. I suddenly calmed down and felt as if someone was acknowledging my petition as if they already knew about it, but I definitely felt somebody was listening to me. I serenely thanked the spirits and closed the communication, walking away with a great sense of calm over me.
It was my first stab at demonic contact, and it was surprisingly pleasant.
Fast forward to the present, the request to be presented remains the same, but I have put some serious effort in learning evocation methods and collected several successful contact experiences using the rituals in Gordon Winterfield’s Demons of Magick.
I have attempted to contact Beleth using two of Winterfield’s rituals: a simple petition for results and a more complex connective evocation.
The petition was…okay. The ritual went really well until it came to contacting Beleth. I spoke the call and took a few seconds to recollect before calling her name aloud, and right when I finally spoke the name my building’s intercom rang, which got me to laugh out loud. I felt a circle around my head and pain in my back, I felt a presence…but no distinct feeling of Beleth’s personality. In my other evocation I could just feel the spirit’s character and was pervaded with a sense of their energy, but with Beleth I just feel my own energy as the caster. Still, I felt my petition was heard and left with a sense of mild satisfaction.
So I chose to try the more intricate connective evocation, performed all the steps, got to feel the presence and a strong tingling in my third eye area but, once again, could not feel a distinct personality coming forth; I just felt my own energy as the caster.
Out of frustration, I switched from my usual welcoming and reverent approach to a more authoritarian approach, mindful of @Norski’s amazing advice:
I felt a huge surge of power and just issued my petition as a command. I explained my attitude to Beleth and felt no indignation or resistance, just pure power on my part and what I guess was acknowledgement on hers. This sensation carried on through the rest of the ritual and after it was complete, later dispelling as is usual for me. But still: no trace of Beleth’s personality.
So my doubt now is whether I have issues perceiving Beleth / she refuses to be perceived by me or if I am just failing to realise that her energy feels exactly like what I normally pick up during rituals: a sense of power, of authority, and of calm.
What is your experience of Beleth like? What is your opinion regarding my (maybe just perceived) difficulties? Thanks!