Greetings BALG Forum,
As most of you know, I recently had a Personal Consult with EA, wrote my upfront review, and walked away pretty confident.
With that being said, every evening I’m conducting Magick Ritual for about 1/2 an hour and working on opening a sigil by:
Sitting in meditation - Anapanasati focusing on the breath, relaxing the body, then focusing on what is called the Anapana Spot (the area between the nostril and upper lip), until i can feel my body completely relaxe and my mind stream start to drift into meditative absorption.
Absorption - although to the best of my knowledge, and I mean with ALL my practical meditative experience (I’m no guru) and studies, a Buddhist never used this method to open a sigil.
So, what I’ve been doing at this phase is opening my eyes and staring at my hand painted sigil of Salas’ash (BoA). Blank ink on white parchment. And thinking about what I’m going to spend my money on when he delivers it to me.
- Then I repeat the process, and start to say things out loud like" Salas’ash, our time is drawing near to when I will evoke you to full manifestation and task you. Our time together draws near"
*NOTE: Indeed, the time is getting closer to where I am going to do a full evocation of this Demon. So in the meantime, I’m doing what I’m calling my preliminaries or pre-ritual practices.
QUESTIONS & YOUR THOUGHTS:
Tonight I experienced my body rocking from front to back, hands flailing violently, head shaking back and forth and side to side. No, I was not in any pain, my eyes were wide open, sometimes not. Has anyone had similar experiences?
I’m NOT that familiar with evocation yet. But I AM familiar with what are called Kriyas from yoga and meditation practice. So to me, I’ve just been experiencing the Kriyas. Now I’m not saying I’m writing this experience off and saying to myself “off it’s just the Kriyas, or maybe it was that piece of pizza I had for dinner”…not any bullshit like that.
To be very frank with you all, and I’m not ashamed to say it, I’m not that experienced with the experience yet! Does that make sense everyone?
In addition, I maybe…well kinda…you know sorta…THINK I heard a voice that wasn’t mine last night say something like “what is your desire or wish or something”. But I heard it more in my mind and it’s hard for me to tell if it was my imagination or the demons voice?
Was I trying too hard last night? I don’t know. When I’m in my own meditation practice and feel that I’m 'trying" I have enough experience to pull back and start again at the breath. I did the same last night.
I wonder if this fiend knows that I’m working up to a full-blown evocation with him. If indeed I am calling him and he is here with me, i don’t want to piss him off by evoking him every night…any suggestions?
So? What you say?
As always friends…I appreciate your input. I’ll sign-off for now reporting from the nether regions of South West Florida.