Last night I performed my 4th evocation of Asmoday.
The previous evocations were nothing dramatic.Just basically getting to know him and telling him what I want.
I did a couple of readings on how I can get myself out of the mess I’ve gotten myself into and things looked good if I continued my work with Asmoday and trusted Him AND myself.
I made an altar for him with the same sigil I’ve been using.
I got a beer out of the fridge being it was the only alcohol I have and filled 2 chalices.One for me and one for him.
I engraved a blue and black candle with his name and anointed them with psychic vision oil.
I find it necessary to note that from the second I began the preparations my entire body was shaking uncontrollably.
I consecrated the circle,dagger,and GoP and with each word spoken during the consecrations my voice turned to rage and the shaking became worse.
I no longer felt the peace of being in a relaxed state although I was definently entering rapture.
My voice got louder and the pleas for Him to come became a COMMAND.
I truly felt like a God.I’ve never felt such a reassurance of power.
When I began to speak the license to appear I lit a cone of incense in a dragon shaped incense burner where you place the cone inside and the smoke comes out of the mouth.I thought this was fitting being his description of appearance.
I took blood from my leg and smeared a drop on the sigil.
I offered everything on the altar to Him and toasted himwith my chalice.
I felt him arrive.As soon as iI felt it the rage and uncontrollable shaking ceased.
I became humbled.
I went over the things I wanted.Basically asking for help with my ascent and to be pulled out of the hole I’m in.
After the conversation I dismissed him and blew out the candles.
I sat in the darkness and meditated while scrying into the dark room.
I began to start nodding off so I decided to go lay down and continue my meditation there.(I was instructed to meditate after the evocation)
Now here’s where shit got scary.
I took a quartz chakra healing wand and played down on my couch and cleared my chakra and vibrated the words of power for each one until I fell asleep.
I woke up to a noise…there was music coming from the dining area along with the sound of muttered voices.
I was terrified.
I tried to sleep but when I closed my eyes the music would start again.
I also heard my daughters voice (who was NOT home ) and looked as my daughter ran into the living room.
Scared shitless I stared at her and she disappeared.
I then heard someone struggling to enter my front door.
A black figure walked into my house speaking in the voice of my mother.
It came at me then faded.
I turned the lights on out of fear hoping that this would go away.
The visions went away but the music and voices plagued me for most of the night.
Every time I closed my eyes it would start.
So far today since I woke up from finally getting to sleep everything has been normal.
I feel at peace.Like everything is going to be OK.
I’m still at a loss about all the phenomena after the evocation but I’ll be doing more work with Asmoday so maybe he can shed some light on this.
I have to admit I’ve never been so terrified.
But at the same time it was proof that this shit is real.
Like I said I was told by Asmoday to have for faith in myself and the reality of majick.
Maybe this was his way of saying “Do you believe in majick NOW?”
I dunno.But there’s my experience.
I’d love to hear some feedback on this.
Anyone ever have this after an intense evocation?