I have no idea where this topic would go.
To sum up the situation: my “chakra wheels” actually spin in reverse. This has been confirmed multiple times.
If you bless me, all bad luck hell is gonna break loose. It’s so I don’t even want you to bless me if I sneeze, and most people don’t even mean that blessing anymore. For a while there I denied having a birthday as that is ALWAYS the worst day of the year for me.
If I do magic for myself, I’m learning, I’m going to get opposite effects as well. This has been consistent for years. But last night I did a simple “prayer” (for lack of better words) to ask for help with a bill and woke up this morning to my last client firing me - leaving me with no income except for book sales through the publishing venture. (That would be a few pennies a year.) Sold one book. $1.00 chaching. Lost my last client. $hundreds klunk-ching.
Okay situation summed up. Moving on.
Spell-wise my magic always works stronger if I do it WITH someone. I’ve just always needed a connection. I didn’t one day decide I needed it, BTW. I just noticed over the years what works and what doesn’t.
I’ve been randomly approached by the Archangel Michael (who told me he was on my side, whatever that means), the Baphomet, Bast, random personages I didn’t recognize, Ganesh, etc. I just get visited a lot. Nothing much comes of them usually, except for the visit from Ganesh. He enhanced my autoharp playing, for which I’m very grateful to the point that I actually dedicated a theater stage paint job to him the other day. (The others thought I was kidding. Har.)
But I will always wonder who that golden angel was as that had the largest impact.
So after this morning’s slam back into the mud I just can’t get what I’m doing wrong. Clearly I need to approach things differently than most people. I thought that was whacked, but I did an experiment on the matter. I thought if hexes only help people (and they seem to) then what if I bless people? So I blessed our play director. He fell immediately ill and practice was cancelled and he had to get his second to help one day.
Didn’t mean to make him ill, to be honest. I’d blessed him with good health! And it wasn’t even a serious “candle lit” thing. It was a mild thought “I’m gonna do this” - which that way of approach also seems to work better for me than going through an entire complicated ritual with an altar.
So… what gives? Surely being in reverse like this can’t be too uncommon. For the record I’ve even tested as “reverse psychic” - which means no one has figured out how to teach folks like me to fly. They just give up instead, but we’re out there.
Thoughts. Serious advice. Information… Similar stories from others who suffer being an opposite?