Day 1/90: 9/10/2023
Ritual 1: Point A + invocation for money
Method: New Avatar Power
Ritual 2: Agares: to make one who has abandoned me think warmly of me
Method: Demons of Magick (ritual 1: written petition)
One of my shortcomings is that I tend to give up easily. I try something, I don’t see any results, and I give up immediately and spend time thinking and worrying about my problems instead of actually getting my skates on and doing something about it. I wanna stick with this, because it might be a good exercise in ritual work (and sticking to something).
Today is as good a day as any to start. I do want to get in touch again with someone I love. We haven’t spoken in forever and I reckon he must have forgotten about me. Well, maybe I can do something about that.
Aside from that there are plenty of other goals I’d like to achieve, I could certainly use some money for things I need and want. Money is really hard to come by. I could use all the luck I can get!
The first ritual I did was the relaxation ritual (called point A) in the book New Avatar Power. I own a copy of the original 1974 (it’s a bit beat up but I’m kinda proud of it).
It’s worked pretty well for me before, (only for small amounts, and it’s very necessary to stick with the ritual).
I have pretty bad ADHD and I absolutely cannot stand silence. So I had a TV show playing gently in the background. I don’t believe this interfered with anything. I felt pretty calm and peaceful during the ritual!
I started with the uncrossing ritual, then point A + the invocation for money. After that, I did the chant for success.
For once, this is not about Al (the guy I love), but an old friend who moved away overseas. I haven’t really heard from this person in months, and I’m wanting to talk to them again.
It’s important to be subtle and start slow, so all I will ask of Agares is for that person to think warm thoughts about me. I have absolutely no way of knowing if this is gonna work (unless I can snag a reading from someone).
I know it’s going to take some time. I think the last time I heard from him was March and we didn’t fall out, the contact just disappeared with him being busy. I wonder if I should send a card for his birthday with a little note? He forgot about mine but well, I reckon it’s a nice thing to do. If he doesn’t care about me anymore the worst thing that can happen is that he’ll throw the card away and I don’t hear anything. But I wouldn’t wanna offend or anything…That’s why it’s so hard to get back into touch with people who stopped talking to you for whatever reason. You think they don’t care anyway and don’t remember you, and if you make the first move, they’ll think you’re weird? But if you just sit and wait, nothing might ever happen. Still, I’m scared to do it, cause nobody wants to get hurt even if you have the best intentions.
I’d love a reading to know if I should send the card or not. Anyway.
I kept it very simple with my petition. ‘I. thinks warmly of me.’
I followed the ritual (and of course, I don’t feel or see spirits, so eh…nothing.)
When I burnt the paper, I struck the match a bit clumsily but it did burn up (with one match, that’s a sign sign in my book. The flames went up pretty high - looked up candle magick signs, and that means that I’ve been heard. One has to assume that anyway.
The flames were blue-green. I’ve been trying to look that up - a blue flame means the spirit is near and heard you (I am a bit colorblind, but I do think it was green.)
Well, what I have to do now, is put it out of my mind. (and assume that my old friend will think fondly of me).
Mini update before I go to bed:
Success! One of my cute little things I listed online just sold. it amounts to no more than 10 bucks but I am honestly happy with anything.
Been getting some interest, some people asking: ‘is it still for sale’ and then…nothing. I hope that with magick I can make interested folks actually buy something.
I’m going to go to sleep now. Let us all hope that tomorrow it’s less hot - way hotter here than usual for the time of the year.