In the early point in my occult career i was very intrigued by possession because of how cooled it looked and sounded. I was especially interested in the animalistic aspects of it. I was also a big fan of serial killer films. This was a recipe for disaster as you will see later. So one day i decided to go through the list of demons from V.K Jehannums site. Even though there were many suitable ones i could experiment with, i made the dumbest decision ever and chose the very lord of darkness himself, Satan.
Call it carelessness, call it stupidity. i don’t think i took demons seriously at the time. I respected them yes, but i did not have a thorough understanding of their energies.
At that time i was just a novice, my senses were not on point and i had not really done an actual evocation of any demon in my life. Stupid! Actually, the only natural gift i had was astral travel.
So i went to V.k’s invocation chants of Satan and performed it i think 4 times over a duration of 2 weeks.
One day, i woke up in the morning but i was not able to sleep so i decided to masturbate so that my body can get tired and i can be able to enter a trance. Usually when this happens i attempt to perform astral projection but something told me that i should call Satan. So i did…Satan! Satan! Satan! and to my surprise, i felt some pressure on my balls, like it was being squeezed by some force. It was sort of painful but pleasurable at the same time. This force made its way on my solar plexus area and shot up with unimaginable power all the way to my face.
When it hit my face it was like an explosion of energy and for a moment i was no longer me, but some sort of beast. It was like my body had an outer covering of the beast. I growled like an animal i cannot describe. It was not a lion or bear and i had to search the internet for the best sound that could mimic that roar. It sounded more like this.
It was as if there were two people in my body. A beast and me. But at the same time, it was as if i was those two people. It is just that the one that was growling had an almost sentient consciousness separate from mine. But i could sense that i was both. It is so confusing. The sound was happening in the astral realm but at the same time my physical body was moving. i was in a light trance and i felt very heavy and before i could arise i stopped the possession immediately because i felt that i could wake up my parents. When i came to my mundane senses, i found myself upright with my mouth open and eyes wide as if i had been growling in the physical plane. All this happened in a span of 5 seconds.
Although this was the coolest thing ever, the residual effects it had on me were not something to smile about and were quite challenging to deal with. For almost a year, i had to deal with murderous and sadistic urges (yes urges, not thoughts…please google the difference) and it was slightly affecting me. Imagine one day going about your normal routines, pouring a very hot cup of coffee in a mug for your friend or family and having this intense urge of splashing it on their faces. Maybe cutting vegetables with a knife and having this intense urge to stab whoever is close by. I think the worst one i every had was when i was on top of a roof with my friend and bro as we were checking out our neighbors dogs. One of the dogs was a rottweiler and it was barking aggressively at us. My bro knelt down close to the edge of the roof to check it out and i had this intense urge to kick him off the roof. I will not name any others.
But here is the final verdict guys. Please please, whatever you do…do not attempt invoke the big boys unless you are ready. Actually, be careful with the intention you have, because you will get what u ask for. This is why we have infernal initiations, which are a step by step process of reintegrating various aspects of your psyche systematically.
Because you might awaken some aspect of your psyche that you are not ready to deal with.
Believe me once aspects of your psyche are awakened, they can never be shut away. You will just have to find ways to deal with it.
Though i will not regret the decision i made, since it opened up other opportunities in my life, i was a fool who decided to ignore the warnings of the adepts and go my own way. You have been warned.