I got this message today by someone that i been talking and guiding for a few months :
“Do i need to reject my belief to god,in order to ascend?
Thats Hard My friend.”
…This is not about pitty nor motivation.
I really dont want to motivate anyone,what i want to show is true fucking power,this is not just words,a feeling and a thought,True power is beyond anything esle,this is overcoming.
I been able to ascend,reach states of apotheosis,to complete dreams and goals while being a broken child in a broken home.
I lived in a dysfunctional christian family that i was abused on,but i became through it.
i was threaten to go in a mental hospital by my family to for practicing magick.
and i practice and became though it.
And somebody told me that they cant reject god for ascend,Now this guy works with demons and wants to be a god.
You can be a god,but you cant worship as a living god.
You want to be a god,well you must reject,practice and go through the storm to be.
if you have what it takes.
As said i dont want to motivate.
but i want you to learn
and actually become something esle.
amaymon teaches a secret and baal too,they taught me the same thing.
every moment,literally every second is sacred in our evolution use this power to be a living god,if you are lost then find yourself.
i encourage you to go in silence, and meditate one hour a day,or stay there in silence one hour a day,silence your mind and feelings and find through that blackness yourself,you may need to call your inner godform to do that,then do that,a living god is something that you want to be.
if you feel like you cant or you are not worthy enough,feed that in the fires of your ascend.
transmute all your weakness and negativity into true power to fuel you,but this only happens when you say “Fuck it” or “enough” you can wait till that moment.
well fine,i dont wait,i hate waiting,not by means that i dont have patience,i do have lots of patience,but i hate sitting and doing nothing.
so everyday i see my old self,dead in the eyes and say enough,and when i dont feel like it.
and thats ok,becuase i push myself to understand that ,i push myself into the pain and i make myself say enough right now,today,everyday.
if you think this is hard,well yes it is,but in the path of godhood theres no such thing as hard,for magick is not easy nor hard.
in my belial pathworking,i been in the lowest of the low,
broken,poor,lied to,and threaten but in those moments i met my godhood
and i sacrificed nights of sleep into literal night long meditations and rituals,there i pushed myself through all realms,dimensions and voids,there i started my path of godhood in the primordial void,as the primordial void.
and i can say for myself too,i know how magick works,i mean true magick,true magick is creation ,rising in the middle of outer darkness.
I never owned a real physical book in my hands about magick,i only wrote tons of handbooks and journals,it was my dream to become an occult author even when i didnt own a single book,guess what i did it.
my journey in that was not easy,sometimes i didnt feel like writing,but that was ok becuase i continue that,i had made a lot of mistakes but timothy helped me to become a great author,now this is only words,but believe me i am writing some gems of power right now.
I had been bullied and been said that i am nothing in my whole life,now they beg me for my attention and even for my mouth to speak becuase i am a wellspring of knowladge and power,and by sight i can command them.
Well This should be enough to help you realise that you can devour yourself to be yourself,
To become a living god.
Sincerely,
Xag/Takkalos.