I’m fairly certain this is it. I don’t have any issues interacting in this physical realm as I’m here. My body and mind are here if that makes sense. I’m comfortable with her knowing my limits because at times like you mention they can be a little overwhelming but they really are quite understanding in knowing not to take me on a ride of sensations. Once I enter the astral and then realize im here is where things become quite odd a little too strange at times. Feels hella alien like in a way for lack of a better word. Gnarly trip like to witness but just somewhat still afraid in a good/sus way to dive deep into the astral with her. I’m not trying to rush much at all anyways.
It usually gets replaced with her warming energy sort of like it’s okay your still learning with getting comfortable in the astral even though its been years. I always admired such patience from them. Never got the chance to transverse through as I was doing things just like anyone else, having good times with our close physical folks then we loose a couple here and there. Law of Universe it seems. Trust me I wasn’t the best at dedicating and straightening my senses some time ago. Only as of recently have I got this good at to the point where I notice I find myself in it when done intentionally. Other than that Im sleeping like a rock dreaming about the most random shit you could possibly think about.
We’re human after all man but we come back stronger than before with our companions right by us as I came to understand from your topics and my own personal recorded interactions. I have my own minor flaws here and there but thankfully nothing to yell at any rain cloud about. They including Lilith helped me clear out louds of doubt even in daily life but as she mentions it seems as our stress affects us on a deeper level that sometimes hinders our senses at a certain point and it took me a while to get that straight with her and eventually apologized. Kinda why I don’t want OP @MechaMan to think he should feel bad for Ignoring his own after a time. I’m sure she’s very still much around him simply waiting for the next Interaction.