Along with what other people have said, I wonder - do you recall the workings or rituals, energy work etc., that you did prior to this?
It’s possible one of them has caused this problem, so if you can backtrack you might be able to find what it was.[/quote]
When this began in December I was not doing anything too special or new. I had actually been having a wonderful time during my break from college with a very good friend of mine. I was showing him some very basic stuff of magick and I was also getting into guitar and reading more thanks to the free time. This drainage was something that snuck up on me.
And, to dispell this quickly, this drainage is not like that of depression. I do not feel bleak or in despair (quite the contrary!), nor is it the exhaustion a college student aspiring to become a clinical neuropsychologist would feel. This exhaustion and drainage has drained me in a sense that makes me feel like a shell both mentally and physically. It has begun to make me frustrated due to what it as brought upon me, but one thing I am heavily considering is an entity I mentioned several months back.
I feel that perhaps I was too excited to have an entity come to me and came off foolish when describing it, but it still lingers and I fear it may be a parasite or something of the sort. Before I cut contact from almost everyone for a small time I was mentioning this entity (You know, Xavashan) to someone on here (I have forgotten their name) and she said that she was constantly attacked just by the mentioning of it’s name and warned me that it was born of me (I cannot remember the exact term she used) and attached to me like a parasite. This will be something I bring up to EA.
All of this exhaustion and drainage has even begun to keep me from getting sleep or having an appetite. I have been getting sick very freuently (which basically NEVER happens to me) since this all began as well as very frequent headaches and throat pains. Along with this I have had a brooding sense of fear in the back of my mind regarding this drainage.
Thanks again (everyone) for responding and giving me suggestions on what may be the issue and how to go about resolving it.